Flashbacks

2011-12-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

I find it hard to trust someone now.
I find it even harder to cross my own limit.

Back to kampong style!

2011-11-29T14:46:00.000+08:00

What a fruitful experiences I had for the past few days!

Was being invited to Malaysia to attend my uncle's wedding and to play for 4 days 3 nights. Took coach there, and it total spent us like freaking 8 hours (inclusive of all those checkin, toilet break, lunch break)! Depart at 6am in the morning and we only managed to reach there at about 5pm.

Stunned, shocked, amazed.
We entered a kampong. Everything there was like a old school style. If you ever watch Kampong Ties on channel 8 at 7pm, you got to believe that everything is the same as what they show. Probably a few houses are no longer wooden, but it still exist! I thought I would die there because no internet, no shopping malls, no nothing! But, I survived. :D

Being brought to our home stay rent by Wai Chan auntie's mum.
Like a heng, it's not a wooden house. Still have air-conditional installed though. :) After we put down our stuffs, head over to Waichan auntie's house for buffet dinner. Their buffet service is so much better than us! The people will stay there to serve you, help you. Totally unlike Singapore's buffet! Service is so good! NO SERVICE CHARGES SOMEMORE. Hello, Singapore, where the hell is the service when we paid for it?! Anyway, I didnt had much food because I have yet used to the food over there. Munching tibits more! Back to home, bathe and relax ~ Time passed freaking slow, I swear! We totally had nothing to do, so we went to bed at freaking 10PM.

The adults kept called us to be prepared by 9am the next morning. Yes, it's the wedding day. Uncle gonna take the wedding car to fetch the bride (even though the bride's house was only 2-3 houses ahead). But the Malaysian wedding is so much relaxing than Singapore's one. It's already 10am, the bride is still nowhere to be seen. So we all head to room and play with monopoly deal.

Can you see how relaxing it is? I still remember that time when I helped out with Bernard's wedding, I was running here and there since 5.30am to all the way 12pm!! Boo! Duh, anyway, I am the photographer, so I went off to bride's home with them first. Hiding in Bride's room taking photos and etc and the groom suddenly appear?! All of us like "Wtf, what to do now?!"

All crying for help in the room, and my auntie was like "dont rush, relax. Slowly." haha! As usual, I went to open door luh, asking for angbao since I done this before. Like again, I bullied my own family..? 吃里爬外，有没有！ Got the bride and start of tea ceremony.

Run back to home half way because the couple heading to our home already. Super epic! Me and Huiyi keep laughing. In Singapore, our tradition is that when the couple coming, the male side family have to hide for a few mins because of some reasons. But in Malaysia, totally no such thing. So the auntie who came to shout "Couple arrived" went into our home and said "HOW COME NO PEOPLE?! HELLO, WHERE ARE YOU GUYS?" Hhaha! So I explained to them our custom, they laughed and say DONT NEED LUH! Wtf ttm! Done with everything, START TO NUA AGAIN. T.T

Waichan auntie bring us to "Jin Bao" to shop before preparing for night time wedding dinner. (See, still can go shopping first?!) Fun though, just like our chinatown! Back to home at around 3pm. Start to rot again. The adults went to nap, while the kids hiding in room playing with Saboteurs and Monopoly Deal! (This part, time passed very fast. haha!) 6pm, we head over to a nearby school for the wedding dinner. Kampong, what do you expect?

I wore slipper to the wedding dinner and totally regretted because we were being called to stage for "Yam sehhh" .. We kids all disiao. We purposely wait for the "yammmm~" to fade off before we start shouting. So everyone was like o.O stunned face when they heard us. haha! The food serve was delicious anyway!

Oh, their wedding dinner very relaxing also. Macham party. The adults will go on stage to KTV, the guest just sit back, relax and eat. They keep call us to go sing, but all old songs, we young kids dont know how to sing. -.-"' I only had a cup of Carlsberg just because I don't want to run toilet. You can imagine the kampong style toilet.

When everything end, they still give you plastic bags to dabao left over food. Cool max! And the guest just go off without even saying goodbye to couples. Why so cool one?! We got so high when they play "Party Rock Anthem" at the end but they cut off because they don't listen to English songs. Our faces all like -.-"' duh ~ Make us happy for nothing.

Back to home, bathe and nuaaaaa again. Everyday nua nua nua.
3rd day. We had a coach to fetch us to Ipoh and Peneng. Not very enjoyable because it took us 2hours to reached ipoh and another 2hours to reached peneng from ipoh. Worst, it's so fucking hot at peneng and we had nothing to do, nothing to buy. :/ Mum see me so poor thing, already last day and I didnt spend a single ringgit, so she asked me if I wanna get the smurf toy back. And she bought me a cig keychain (she very happy about this. -.-)

Went to a famous thai temple (蛇庙), I eventually went to pray 四面佛, pray health, wealth, education and pray very hard for relationship. HAHA! Think stayed in kampong too long, I totally turn nuts. After this, being brought to another side of peneng to have our dinner. We like some hungry ghost. FULL TABLE OF FOOD. You got to see it from my facebook. &finally, we see shopping mall!!!!!!! All of us like crazy, including the adults. But only had a pathetic 1 hour to shop. Sad ttm!

Back home at 12am, because of some wtf reasons. 5hours car ride. -.-
Played with cousins till 4am, sleep and woke up at 7am. GO HOMEEEEEEEE! :D

P.S.// My phone was left UNcharged for the past 4 days and amazingly, the battery life still have about 80%.
P.S/// We happened to see 2 accidents during the 4 days. Malaysia drivers are really scary, I swear! Love Singapore's LTA now.
P.S/// My cousin almost lost his phone because the malaysia cleaners found it while cleaning and refused to return us. Thank god, our bus driver helped us and very lucky, my cousin did on his ringtone, blasting type somemore. He got no choice but to return us.

So in conclusion, Malaysia is really dangerous. Moreover, we are too well-protected by Singapore Government.

2011-11-23T15:41:00.002+08:00

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一切从零开始。

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It's you who made me.

2011-10-12T01:16:00.001+08:00

Feel like though I've gone through pretty much this 2 months. Uncountable tears & smiles.
Can't accept the fact that it was actually relationship that brought this upon to me. I never thought this could hurt me so much because I wasn't never someone who is so into such thing. Prolly dont even need this shit in life. But nothing is impossible..

Not much people really know what's happening to me. All they knew was I fall for another guy and broke up with my ex-boyfriend. How true this is, I don't know. All I know was that I already lost my feelings towards my ex-boyfriend when we are still together, and probably that's the only reason why I am able to fall for another guy.

I don't really wish to make explanations. No matter what the truth is, you guys still think the same, "she's totally a slut", isn't it? Who truly care, who just being busybody?

Everything happened in a really fast pace.
He just got my attention in no time. My mind got lost, everything in me got messed up. I just .. fall in love with him so deeply, so insanely. Some people say it's a crash, some say he's the right man, but I just feel I am purely in love. He left me, so it doesn't really matters if I am in love with him or he's just a crash.

Trying my best to let go, but he still appears in my mind.
I miss him every night, even till now.. I like him, but at the same time I hate him too. I hate how he made my life so miserable. I hate how he entered my life, and left without a word. I hate him how he can ignore me, even when I am tweeting how much I miss him. I hate him for leaving sweet memories behind, and made me feels even more terrible when I can't get rid of those. But, isn't it my fault to let myself fall into it?

Love & Hate.
I don't even know which is the real me. Which are my real feelings.
I scold you, but deep down I missing you real hard. I wanted to forget you as soon as possible, but deep down I need you more than anything else. Contradicting. Sometimes, I am not sure what I really want. I am just lost.

It's pretty hard to forget everything between you and me.
Especially now, when we still get to meet in school. It's really a terrible nightmare for me. We couldn't smile to each other, we just became ... strangers. Won't deny I really feel heartbroken about it, but I can't change the fact.. All I could do is to accept, and pretend that we never knew.

I don't really know what I am wishing for..
I don't know what are you to me now..

So much of "I don't know"..

23rd August 2011

2011-08-23T10:02:00.003+08:00

I am not sure if I am doing the right way.

I am really sick of it, and I mention it multiple of times already. Maybe, I'll be regret with what I've made now in future. Maybe not. But some thing I am pretty sure of now is that, it's impossible for us to go back the past. Probably only me.

1 year 4 months, we gone through a lot. Alot more than I thought. I didn't expect this relationship to go through such a long period because we started off without even knowing everything about ourselves. Yet, I appreciated the past 1 years, all the things you did. I really do.

It's my fault, for letting the feeling fade. When I brought up breakup the 2nd time, I already knew things have changed, but I choose to ignore and carry on. We suffered,we quarreled each time we meet up, be it serious matter or small issues that nobody actually bother to care. I admit, I am really impatient, hot-tempered. I've been too much recently.

I thought about it really clearly. Perhaps, going separated ways are the best way for us. It might be hard at the beginning, but it's a stage we definitely have to go through. It's just a matter of time.

Just another useless update..

2011-08-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

Last update was like 20th July, and it's useless. Crap.

Partial for Interaction Design and now at E6 rotting because of SNGXINYI. Her friends all here talking, I like so awkward alone here listening. LOL!! Laptop battery low, iPhone battery also low. Can die, I need an hour more of battery. :X

I don't know what to update la.
I just wanted to do something so I don't feel so awkward here. haha!! Oh, Faci gave me a D despite me not attending meeting 2 and 3 last week. Feel kind of bad about it, because I am expecting F since I didn't do anything that day.

I feel so regretted.
If I don't have the habit of skipping classes, I bet I am doing perfectly good now. My recent grades are all Bs and Cs, and A for drawings. I should have come! I should have! :( Argh, the thought of retaking Art of Story really makes me feel like slapping myself.

It's finally week 14 anyway, like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y..
Busy and hard semester, but I don't know why, I feel I learnt pretty much more than last semester. Something we should have already learn during Year 1 and not Year 2 onwards. ._____.

Looking forward to holidays!
So much of plannings done with 6c cliques. <3 USS, picnic, kite-flying, pula ubin etc Where to get all those expenses? :(

Anyway, I should start meeting friends too. Don't remember when was the last time I went out with Cassandra, Siew Xian and blah ~ I need to maintain my pathetic small friends' circle. MAINTAIN!!

K, shall save battery, laptop left 25%.
Bye, update again! :D

Good old days

2011-07-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

I realised Mediacorp have been airing old dramas during midnight. And it really bring back my memories! Feel so happy to re-watch all these dramas cast by those seniors actor in Mediacorp. Imagine some still acting in present drama and they ain't really old yet!

So I decided to be silly, google Mediacorp history!
& I found a lot information that I really want listed them out year by year!

1983
新兵小传 Army Series.小飞鱼 Flying Fish (Starring 梁志强)
狮城勇探 CID '83 (Starring 黄文永)

1964雾锁南洋I The Awakening 1 (Starring 黄文永、向云)雾锁南洋 II The Awakening 2

1986
咖啡乌 The coffee shop红头巾 The Samsui Women

1987
五脚基 Five Foot away

1988
牛车水人家 Teahouse in Chinatown (starring 陈莉萍、李南星、朱厚仁、林梅娇、傅水玉、张水发)

1989早安老师 Good Morning, Sir! (Starring Chen Liping,Li Nanxing,Hong Huifang, Zhu Houren,)
1990飞跃巅峰 The Winning Team (Starring 陈莉萍)

1991
三面夏娃 Pretty Faces (Starring 郑惠玉、林梅娇)
1992
戏剧人生 Terms of Endearment (Starring Zoe Tay, Xie Shaoguang)

1993
双天至尊 The Unbeatables (starring Zoe Tay, Li Nan Xing, Zhu Houren, Chen Shucheng)

1995
阳光列车 The Morning Express (Starring Chen Hanwei,Fann Wong,Ann Kok)
阳光列车II The Morning Express II

1996
双天至尊II The Unbeatables 2 (Starring Zoe Tay, Li Nan Xing,Cassandra See,Zhu Houren,Chen Shucheng)
金枕头 The Golden Pillow (Starring Fann Wong, Xie Shaoguang,Alex Man,Huang Wenyong, Zoe Tay, Xiang Yun）
豆腐街 Tofu Street (Starring Jacelyn Tay)
敢敢做个开心人 Don't Worry Be Happy (Starring 黄文永、方辉、周初明、权怡凤、王裕香、潘淑卿、洪培兴)

1997
和平的代价 The Price Of Peace (starring Christopher Lee, Carole Lin,Hong Hui Fang,Xiang Yun)

1998
钢琴88 Facing the Music家人有约 Stand by Me (starring Xie Shaoguang,Huang Biren)
哎哟哟奇妙假期 My Teacher, Aiyoyo! (Starring Chen Li Ping)
神雕侠侣 The Return of the Condor Heroes (Starring Christopher Lee, Fann Wong, Zhu Houren, Yvonne Lim, Constance Song, Evelyn Tan, Zheng Geping, Pan Lingling, Chen Shucheng)

1999
福满人间 Wok Of Life (Starring Chew Chor Meng, Evelyn Tan, Ann Kok)
步步为赢 Out to Win (starring Fann Wong)
出路 Stepping Out (Starring Yvonne Lim, Xie Shaoguang,Cynthia Koh,Tay Ping Hui,)

2000
家事 My Home Affairs
琼园咖啡香 Hainan Kopi Tales

2001
星锁 Looking for Stars (Starring Fann Wong,Christopher Lee, Yao Wen Long,Vivian Lai,Xiang Yun)
白蛇新传 Madam White Snake (Starring Fann Wong,Christopher Lee)
大酒店 The Hotel
何日军再来 In Pursuit of Peace
法医X档案 Beyond the Axis of Truth
顶天立地 The Reunion

2002
发财八百万 Lucky Numbers (Starring Xie Shao Guang, Mark Lee, Sharon Au, Pan Ling Ling)

浓浓咖啡乌 Kopi-O 2
春到人间 Springs of Life
好儿好女 Viva Le Famille
豹子胆The Vagrant
有情有义 Brotherhood
考试家族 No Problem!
九层糕 Beautiful Connection
天使的诱惑 The Wing of Desire
双天至尊III The Unbeatables 3

2003
真心英雄 True Heroes
荷兰村 Holland V
好儿好女2 Viva Le Famille 2
孩有明天 A Child's Hope
我家四个宝 Baby Boom
无炎的爱 Always on My Mind (Based on the life of Tan Tock Seng Hospital Staffs during SARS Period)
家在大巴窑 Home in Toa Payoh

2004
非一般妈妈 To Mum with Love
喜临门 Double Happiness Season 1
三十风雨路 An Ode to Life
喜临门II Double Happiness Season 2
大女人小女人 Beautiful Trio
孩有明天 2 A Child's Hope 2
家财万贯 The Ties that Bind
任我遨游 The Champion
野蛮亲家 My Mighty In-Laws

2005
同心圆 Portrait of Home Season 1 (Airing again on Saturday & Sunday, 4.30pm to 6.30pm)
同心圆 II Portrait of Home Season 2
活下去 A Life of Hope
镜中人 Beautiful Illusions
阴差阳错 Zero to Hero
有福 A New Life
梦在手里 Destiny
谁家母鸡不生蛋 Baby Blues
法医X档案 2 Beyond the aXis of Truth 2
拥抱明天 A Promise for Tomorrow
舞出彩虹 The Rainbow Connection

2006
至尊红颜 Women of Times
爱情零度C Love at 0°C

2007
萤火虫的梦 Let It Shine
原点 The Beginning
手足 Kinship Season 1 (Airing again on Sunday, 11pm)
手足 II Kinship Season 2
最高点 The Peak
凡间新仙人 Happily Ever After
幸福双人床 Mars vs Venus
幸运星 Switched!
宝家为国 Honour and Passion
破茧而出 Metamorphosis
女婿当家 Dear, Dear Son-In-Law
黄金路 The Golden Path (Celebrates MediaCorp's 25 years of local Chinese drama and also the end-year blockbuster for 2007)

2008
我们的饭店 Our Rice House
心花朵朵开 Love Blossoms I
心花朵朵开 II Love Blossoms II
缘之烩 Taste of Love
一房，半厅，一水缸 Just in Singapore (MC King dies during the filming period due to Heart attack)
谜图 The Truth
变奏曲Rhythm of Life
球爱大战 Beach.Ball.Babes
沸腾冰点 The Defining Moment
奶爸百分百 Nanny Daddy
不凡的爱 By My Side (A 20-episode drama on AIDS, commissioned by the Health Promotion Board.)
小娘惹 The Little Nyonya (The Channel 8's 45th anniversary drama had 16 awards nominated forStar Awards 2009.)

2009
想握你的手 Your Hand In Mine (Lowest rated long form drama, due to Channel U'sCruel Temptation. Remake ofHolland V andLikeable or Not. Second to be filmed in high definition.First to be shot outdoors)
团圆饭 Reunion Dinner
未来不是梦 The Dream Catchers (This drama features Singapore's engineering sector, commissioned by the Economic Development Board.)
煮妇的假期 Housewives' Holiday (This drama is mostly watched by viewers in 2009.)
乒乓圆 Table of Glory (Last drama to be broadcast in 4:3 format.)
书包太重 My School Daze (First drama to be broadcast in 16:9 in 4:3 format.)
双子星 The Ultimatum (Mid-year blockbuster for the year 2009. Fann Wong and Zoe Tay pairs up again after 1995 drama The Golden Pillow. First to be filmed in high definition.)

当我们同在一起 Together (Celebrates MediaCorp Channel 8's 46th anniversary.)

2010

过好年 Happy Family

游戏人生 Priceless Wonder

五福到 the Best Things In Life

红白囍事 New Beginnings (First drama to be broadcast in 16:9 widescreen.)

我在你左右 With You (This drama is mostly watched by viewers in 2010.)

最火搭档 Unriddle Season 1 (Police blockbuster for the year 2010.)

走进走出 The Family Court (Remake of Relentless Justice.)

查某人 Mrs PI

破天网 Breakout End-year blockbuster drama for 2010

2011

乐在双城 A Tale of 2 Cities

生日快乐 Be Happy ((Fann Wong returns after The Ultimatum.)

麻婆斗妇 The In-Laws (HK actress Louise Lee returns to Singapore screens for the first time after 2005's drama Portrait of Home.

Remake of Love.)

警徽天职 C.L.I.F. (Police blockbuster drama for the year 2011, in collaboration with theSingapore Police Force, with scenes filmed in real police grounds.Second to be shot outdoors. Remake ofCrimewatch (Singapore).)

阿娣 Devotion ( Zoe Tay returns after Carlsberg Telemovie Showcase In the Name of Love. Chen Shucheng returns after With You. Mid-year blockbuster drama for 2011. Remake of An Ode to Life,The Little Nyonya,Together and Taiwanese long-running Hokkien series A Place Called Home.

All resources are adopted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_programmes_broadcast_by_MediaCorp_Channel_8

Updates..

2011-07-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Twitter is awesome enough. :)

I had pretty much yummy feast these days, and I'm happy.

My birthday was simply the best!! Simple & sweet!
Though not much celebrations, but it's the lovely companion that counts! I spent the day before with my family, having crab feast at 900+. First year Sis not with us, so it's kind of pathetic.

Super funny, Boyf try to crack his crab, and it flew into his drinks. Noob or what?!

On the actual day itself, heading to school as usual.
Classmates are awesomely great, even though they just merely bought a subway cookies for me as my birthday present. But it's always better than nothing, moreover I am not so close with them to make them give me present! &Diana, Youxiang bought me and Shirinah a birthday cake! *sniff sniff* :')

At night, head over to Doudby Ghout with Liling and we had Sushi for dinner. Walk around and she bought me a F21 shorts. Super love it! <3 JJ drove us to fetch Boyf and we head back home to cut cake with parents + Bacon. :) Doremon Puzzle & my favourite Moscato!! Day end with both me & boyf breaking our wine glass at different timing. :/

Following day, had a cooking session with all my lovely girlfs at my house. Spaghetti, Korean sauce chicken wings, fried hotdogs & cheese toufu. Super love them! And we head to Jurong Central Park after that for some photo snapping! Day end with Jermine's dad driving us home, and we (Xueping, peishi & me) hit our head to the car. :(

(Dont remember anything after that)

I had beer in school with YouXiang on thursday while waiting for the workshop. &I'm proud of that. :D

Friday, meet up with Baobao Zann after school hours.
Supposedly, we wanted to head to USS hollywood after hours after our Bakerzin, but.. the promotion end already. So we head back to Vivo to look for dinner, and we entered Serenity Spanish Bar.

Her cocktail.

My beer.

Yup, we had an outdoor seating, and our seats are the best view, because we get to see the whole Imbiah Lookout station. :D

Potato something. Appetizer.

I swear this is damn nice! We finished it in no time!

One & only main course.

Toast bread to go with the soup

Me & my scooby from BB Zann. :)

Us & the restaurant.

My Korea gift from Angela Number One. :)

My Scooby is actually bigger than Bacon. haha!!

Day ended after our dinner, because she was rushing to go to friend's birthday party. But we had enough fun! :) Love the atmosphere where you get to have some beer @ outdoor with the wind blowing. Probably hoping to go Sentosa someday at night with my beers. :)

Today, 9th July.

It's Pei Yun Auntie birthday! :D

Had my afternoon spent with SNGXINYI, on our way to clarke quay to do my drawing assignment. Thanks her for accompanying me, if not I will be like retard taking photos on my own.

Super love this! <3

Walk around to kill time. Head to vivo before we head back home. :)

Catch a nap till 7pm, head out to meet cousins&relatives. We had Dian Xiao Er for dinner to celebrate Peiyun auntie's birthday ~~ Food, good. Service, bad.

Popular to get all my stuffs & home!

Shall end the post with Most Epic photo for the day!

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BACON WITH PHOTOSHOOTING SKILL! :D

2011-07-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

I am truly happy these days.

I know I've been rather paranoid all these while. I've long realised I am suffering from mild depression. But i choose to ignored it, not to say it. It got really terrible when things are getting from bad to worst. I can't control my thinking at all.

My thoughts, those wild imagination flashing stuffs that were never happen. Things that are untrue. Everything was just my own imgaination due to my low self-esteem. I thought nobody likes me, i have no friends, and the word "trust" had really made my life drained.

Till now, i still cant bring myself to trust anyone. One, twice, third, betray and make use are enough.

Stress. Yes, why do i have stress. I am just an idiot. Its impossible for me to have stress. There's stress even being an idiot. I swear, I only know these when my tension headache got serious. I am really stressed over schoolwork, over relationship, my fat problem and mainly, friendships. Back to square, its all because of trust and low self-esteems.

I am trying to cure depression by myself.
Yes, i did pretty much research on it, and prolly gets a little information and I am glad it helps a little, otherwise I will be seeing a physiologist and maybe on depression pills now. Happy thoughts and positive mindset is all I need.

But, right now, I am losing all the energy and motivation. I am getting depressed day by day. I need encouragement. Even its just a word. I cant fight this alone. And I am always asking, why am I the only one having depression? Why cant i be the same as others, get to be the happiest and luckiest girl in the world? Why cant i have the happiness easily? Why do i have to go through all these in order to be happy? Why?

I hate to be sick.
I dont want to be alone.

19th, Happy Father's Day

2011-06-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

It's been a month since my last post..

School, work, holidays, UTs.
Life seem meaningless when school reopens. Spending whole day in school just get those grades.

It's not as easy as those people who think Rp is easy to score. To be frank, it's much more difficult than those asshole who think it is. Probably, it may be easy if we happened to meet angel, carebear, awesome facilitators. Because no matter what we do, we will never get a D from them. But if we meet faci like my HOTA faci, than I have to say, work harder on your UTs. Our life, is not just solely based on our understanding to that particular module, but to that particular faci for that module.

Ya, nobody will understand this point unless you are RP students.
So, stop saying how lousy Rp is. PBL system is not as easy as you see.

Anyway,
Happy Father's Day to all daddys.

Amazing awesome dream!

2011-05-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

So, I had a good sleep last night because I dreamt of something I had never thought of before.

The whole dream goes,
Jang Geun Suk called me and told me he holding a fanclub meeting, &i am the lucky one who get to meet him face to face alone! (I'm not a fan of him, and obviously he could speak english.) I don't know why I got so excited but I bloody don't believe it. IT MUST A PRANK. &he told me its true. He will be waiting for me at Singapore Indoor Stadium backstage with all idols there. (Think having a concert or what la)

So I went, and I slowly open the their room door and boom! He's there! So happy to see me and wanted to come hug me! But you know what?! I told him to wait, cause I saw my Show Luo sitting at another corner. I just went over to hug Show and he doesnt want to let go of me! Hahahaah!!

Had a short chat before I went over to find Jang Geun Suk. He gave me a big hug too! &than I woke up. Boo!

Catching up a lil ...

2011-05-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

It has been such a long time since my last update!!

So, school was as usual. Wake up - school - home.
Year 2 was rather tedious, time pass without myself knowing. Almost busy everyday, schoolwork, schoolwork, schoolwork. Don't even get to have extra time to catch a breathe. Phew ~

Got myself a part-time job despite the busy timetable and tons of bloody drawings homeworks. But I'm afraid it might not last for long. I am just so tired everyday, be it sleeping for 12 hours or 4 hours. Boo!

Aww, I am sick this few days.
Blaming the weather for being a bitch. Everyone complaining the humid, warm, hot weather. Not just me, but I get to enjoy free air-con all day long as long as I am at home. Awesome not? (That's why I am gluing my butt to home, I just dont wanna get out of this icy room!!)

It's already problem 4. So.. another one more problem before UT1 comes, eh?
No more playing, shall score whatever I can. Just in case I flunk badly in UT3. :P

Twenty-three, April, 2011

2011-04-24T03:42:00.001+08:00

I will never for this day till the last breathe of mine.

This is the saddest day in my life.
The day where I wanted a breakup so much,
The day where I see where I stand among all my "friends",
The day where I finally realised I am just nobody.
The day where I know nobody will actually cares you're dead or alive.
The day that I finally know, I am alone all along.

I cried so much over everything that I feel my body is dehydrating, so much that I feel that I've cried half of my life away. Not to say, that suicide thinking obviously came across my mind. There is this one second that I wanted to just grab the scissor beside me and slash it into my heart without any hesitation.

How much more do I need to go through, how much?
I am totally drained out, totally. Physically and mentally tired. I only feel I am a living corpse, walking around like a zombie without any soul at all. I really really really can't take it anymore.

I shall closed my heart, closed everything.

Sup!

2011-04-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

Hi, it has been some time since I blog. I feel the distance between me and my blog now. (haaa)

Hmm, I had fun over the last 2 weeks of holidays. I spent all the money I saved during the holidays, awesome not?

School reopened on 18 April, which is like 3 days ago. Day 1 was pretty much ok because the girls are with me and TCWONG is my Drawing module faci. He's awesome!! I wanna get all my As As As, what about you you you? (ok, i got influence by Bobby) This 2 days modules are so-so. Not yet used to it, but I'm sure I will very soon. :D

I can't wait for mid-sem holidays to come. Even though it's only 1-2 weeks! :(
Anyway, this few days been hanging around with E36C cliques during breaks. Only time that I feel it's great la! Hope this continues!

Will update again.

Goodbye!

26th March 2011

2011-03-26T05:55:00.001+08:00

I gonna do a proper post today. :)

It's has been about a month since holiday started. Been rather good because I've been coping myself at home and only went out a few days during this entire month. I enjoy the moment where I am the one controlling time! Sleep anytime I want, do whatever I want. Best of it, I save quite a lot of money because I didn't spend any at all and at the same time I don't have to spend since I am on diet too.

But.. the bad thing is, I functioning at the wrong time. Working in the night, sleeping in the day. Hmm.. I really need to change back my time as soon as possible. Left about 3 weeks to school reopen, pretty sad about it. Holiday going to end just in a blink of an eye ~

Anyway, I've been quite into dancing and piano these couple of days. Currently working hard on piano, intend to learn a few songs for some purposed and I hope I can do it. At least one song, pleaseee! God lucky, because I used to learn all those musical notes, so it wasn't that hard to start off again. Memories just flashed back to during the days where Mrs Chee taught me. Yes, Mrs Chee was my band instructor and I amazingly still could remember her as I quited band during secondary 2.

I still need a tutor since I only learnt treble clef and not bass clef.. Hoping someone could guide me! ;)

And.. I going out later on, and I doubt I will have enough sleep.
Spending money once again. I shall control later on, budget is all I need!

Alright, I shall stop here.
Goodbye!

Start anew.

2011-03-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

Cont' 30 days challenges... Click here for the post !!!

How great, today's challenges stopped at a question I hate most. -.-"'

Day 13 - Your thoughts or opinion about Mean Girls.
- I don't watch Mean Girls. That's pretty sad.

Day 14 - Do you have siblings? Talk about them, or talk about what it's like to be an only child.
- Yup, only child? I think I will die. hahaha!

Day 15 - Tell us your favourite junk food.
- As long as you called it a junk food, I like.

Day 16 - Your favourite Disney Princess Movie.
-Rapunzel for the time being. (Rapunzel, Rapunzel, please let down your hair)

Day 17 - Your thoughts on Ugg Boots
- The designer is a fucker because it only can be worn on skinny bitch legs.

Day 18 - Do you drink soda more often than milk?
- Soda!

Day 19 - The initials of your crush(es).
- Crushed. :)

Day 20 - Do you wear glasses? If so, what are they for?
- Do you have brain? If so, what are they for?

Day 21 - Your favourite subject to study
- If there is, pigs are flying.

Bye.

Death, 死亡...

2011-03-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

Death, a word that makes human afraid.

"死亡"...是什么？
当一个人走向死亡时，是什么感觉？当一个人死的时候，又是什么感觉？这种无止境的好奇，让疲惫不堪的我，想要尝试死亡的感觉。

我知道，比起其他比我还万分不幸人来说，我其是已经很幸运。但是，这种想法早在我第一次想离开的时候就已经不当一回事了。我，已经再也没有那个勇气再面对多一次的失败。毕竟我的人生已经充满了不该有的后悔、遗憾、失败。再快乐，再乐观，都会有用完的一天。我累了，厌倦我的生活了，也不想再努力了。再努力，也是百忙一场，不会有结果。

死不能解决问题，却能让我比较好受。
我知道每当我拥有死亡的念头时，我已经又迈向死亡的路。想着打开窗口，就这样的跳下去，3秒，就3秒，疼痛将会渐渐散去。很快就不痛，很快就不会难过，一切将会在下一秒内结束。

死亡与活下去，我选着了死亡，这是我自己的选择，我不会怨任何人。请求上帝，把我带走，让我带着悲伤，快乐的死去。

我，不会再出现了。

I might become a history!

2011-03-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

Alright, everyone should already know about Japan's situation.

I am glad that so far Singapore is safe, and (being evil yet it's a fact) we gonna be safe since we have our neighbour countries to protect us even the disaster attack here. We should be satisfied being in such a safe and.. small country.

I know I am kind of bad to say these, but isn't it kind of Japan's retribution? Remember how they destroy our precious homeland in the year 1940's, they show no mercy in anyone of our people and killed them without having any hesitation. Not only our homeland being destroy, other countries like Taiwan, experiences it too. It's pretty unfair to let them continue living in prosperity for decades years even after taking away so many innocent lives.

But that's not what I going to say here la. I do still feel pity for them. #prayforjapan . Afterall, the mastermind who invaded our homeland is Yamashita! -.-"'

(above content are solely based on my personal thoughts and opinions, no offence to the Japanese!!)

I was talking about these with Xinyi yesterday.. If the earth were to come an end, everyone were dead. A century later, will there be humans born again like how our first human born now(though it's still a maze how humans come to earth)? If yes, will they discovered that a century ago, there's all kind of humans living on earth..? Will the find our 100 years ago bak ku teh that was buried under the ground with a metal pot?

Will they be like our historian, discover the lives humans had a hundred years ago? Will I became a history? And so on.. It will be pretty cool isn't it? Maybe I should like start writing diary on my blog, so they can discover it. Maybe starting my post with "15th March 2011, Tuesday. Singapore" So when they discovered my webpage, they will continue with their research and I soon gonna appeared on student's history book!! WOAH!

Ok, I am too positive about the end of world.
I should get paranoid and start panic/frightened about the fact that I am dying either soonest hundred more days or longest 1 year plus. -.-

Let's pray for the Japan, hope you recover from the disaster soon, and may our earth be safe!

-End-

Cont' 30 days challenges... Click here for the post !!!

Day 11 - Your top three favourite brands.
- STAGE of Hayline, Armani (all 3), Marc by Marc Jacob

Day 12 - Your thoughts or opinion about Harry Potter.
- Er.. He know how to use... wand & spells? :X

Bye!

Day 7 to 10

2011-03-13T21:24:00.001+08:00

Cont' 30 days challenges... Click here for the post !!!

Day 7 - How did you came across tumblr, and how your life changed since joining?
Through friends? Because all complaining about how sucks blogger is, &went to try on it. I stopped using it for a while, but tumblr trends came back again. So here am I. :D

Day 8 - Are you a fitness guru or coach potato? Talk about your exercise habits.
Ah~ I consider a coach potato? Heh, I so far only active in rope jumping and most probably walking. :P

Day 9 - Favourite meme at the moment.
What is "meme" ?!!?!?

Day 10 - Talk about your pets, or the pets you would like to have.
Bacon? Aww, he's a cute yet irritating stupid dog. Love him still..♥ And he some sort of having some features that can be found in Hachiko. I find it amazing too. ;X

Be back again.
20 days more to go! :D

Day 5 & 6

2011-03-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

Cont' 30 days challenges... Click here for the post!

Day 5 : Tell us your three favorite colors.
- White, black, grey.

Day 6 : Your favorite season and why?
- Winter. Because I hate to warmy day!!

Bye!

Day 3 & 4

2011-03-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

Cont' 30 days challenges... Click here for the post!

Day 3 : Your favorite television programme?
- No specific programme. I just watched anything that is nice. :D

Day 4 : Write about your closest friend(s).
- Xinyi, have been friends since secondary 3, been doing well and she's a noob. :D
- Xueping, heh, friends since primary 3, been doing well too and she's a well-known auntie. HAHAHA!! Opps.
- Zann, poly friends, my baobao, siaozarborh, She's my awesome mate! ♥ ♥ ♥
- too much to say. you know who you are. :P

Be right back!

SS501 Solo Collection

2011-03-04T05:12:00.000+08:00

Ep 1

Ep 2

Ep 3 (Final + NG)

Ok, I am officially a fan of SS501 ~ :D

30 days challenge!

2011-03-03T02:20:00.001+08:00

Came across this in tumblr, and decided to give it a try since I gonna bored dead during this holidays. &also a good excuse to make myself blog everyday.

Day 1 - Your middle name, and how you feel about it?

- Daphne. So-so, don't really like it. It'll be great if I can change to something more unique, more special. :D

Day 2 - Talk about your piercings or tattoos, if you have any.

-5 piercings. Used to be 7, but two closed during secondary 4. No tattoos, but thinking to have one behind my right ear. But parents not gonna approved that, so.. give up. :)

Look forward, not back.

2011-02-23T22:44:00.001+08:00

Quite in love with her hair...

Done with my last UTs for year 1. Unofficially graduate from year1 uh?

Have been staying home enjoying my holidays and I am glad that I do make the effort to arrange my time. Anyway, am in the mid of planning my holidays. Getting a job might be part of the holiday plan but I am lazy and just wanted to get my butt out out Singapore. Johor, Puket, Bangkok, Bintam or whatever.

Start my intensive diet plan today though my diet plan started long time ago. But I-am-following-it-strictly-this-time. Somehow, I feel healthier too! It's not that hard to stay away from junk foods for 7 days, right? :) I will stay with it, time to seriously look at my weight and cut it off. No more gaining but losing and maintaining!

My days are a little better with weight loss plan keeping me occupied.

Life will be better very soon.
Looking quite forward to class outing and Sentosa trip with the girls. :)

Be back soon...

The Sweetest Memories...

2011-02-19T03:07:00.000+08:00

Last paper on Monday, and I not in the feel/mood to study for it first.

Anyway, just went online shopping again. And I happened to enter my livejournal account again, so I just hop around to take a look. Saw many pictures of Sec3/4 times? I've changed pretty much, aging, body size.

I'm not very sure about when the photos were taken, but whatever, it's just for reference. :P This was me, when I still in my long hair with ultra mega cute bangs. I look freaking like a child. A chio child!

Seriously, very chio hor? hahah!! I wonder what happening to me now!! I ain't taking care of my image ever since I graduated from Secondary School!! No longer spending time doing heavy makeup, dress up, or even camwhore. Oh, AND MY BODY SIZE, FREAKING FAT NOW. LOL!!

But I prefer my nude make up now. heh!!

I don't know why I suddenly chop off my long hair, and ever since than, I no longer that chio. hahaha!! Hair really make a woman different!!!

Okay, I not sure where did my courage come from. Post this up because I wanna let you guys see how slim I am in the past. 48kg only if I am not wrong!! :( And I am already 160cm that time....... LOOK AT THE SLIM ARMS, LEGS, TUMMY. Omfg, what really happening to me!?

Heh, and one bonus for you. All my cute, chio photos. :D

While reading the post, I accidentally found this photo, and it reminds me of him..

It's hurting so deeply that I'll never forgets. I even threw this ring away! :'(

Pretty random, sudden change of mood.

Back here.. Lastly, my current photo...

Admit it, I getting prettier day by day. :P

Goodbye!

16th February,

2011-02-16T00:34:00.001+08:00

I'm in the mid of examinations.

Was kind of busy with all the revision lately, many things happened though.

Just to say, I'll update blog when I am free. Most probably, after UT.

.

CNY Blast!

2011-02-08T21:28:00.001+08:00

Hi guys,

First of all, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! :D

I've been busy over the whole entire first week of February! As mention, down with flu and cough the week before cny, and got myself MC from school on Tuesday and Wednesday. I am so blur till even the person at the clinic also laughed at my blurness.

Wednesday had my reunion dinner at Yvonne's house, simply love reunion dinner with family. It's awesome! <3 Angbaos time and head home because Dad want to close door before 11pm. Heard is to block those bad luck from entering the house on New Year. I "shou sui" until 5am went on to sleep.

Thursday, NEWWWW YEARRR ~
Woke up at a freaking 8am. Went on back to sleep till 9plus. Prepared and head over to ahma's house. Eventually just sat in the room because of my leg. ): But great la, cause those aunties confirm come by and angbaos just came to my hands itself. :D

We thought we not going kimpo house, so we skip to Eryi house, end up they say they over there and why aint we there ~ Angbaos! T.T I rotted again at Eryi house from 1pm till 10plus!! NO JOKE OKAY. BORED SI ME.

Friday, Chu Er
Dad's relatives came over to our house. Awesome gambling!! Played Monopoly Deal, BlackJack and In-between. We got crazy over playing in-between! I should intro to my friends, so we can play this saturday!! Play till nighttime, hop on to Jp to watch midnight movie. Seriously, MIDNIGHT. 1.15AM - Mr and Mrs Incredible! (Y) Cab home at 3plus and only sleep at 5plus.

I forgot what happened on Saturday and Sunday. Basically rotting at relative house and going temple, if I am not wrong!

Monday back to school, Monday blues ~

That's all.

Heh, UPDATE AGAINNNN ~

31st Jan...

2011-01-31T08:30:00.000+08:00

Everything is just a nightmare. Now I am awake, and everything is back to normal, as usual. :)

Down with serious flu and cough recently, and making feel terrible when I still have to go to school. Worst, this few days just raining non-stop. 36hours! It had never happened in Singapore before, SINGAPORE. Imagine it's a bloody country that warm till dont know what! Now is like 23 degree, even me also wearing jacket everywhere even at home. Joke or what?

But I like the rain still. :)

Anyway, new year is around the corner, let's hope I get better by than.

Meanwhile, most likely I will forget about my blog because UT3 coming right after cny. So yeah, stay tune.

BYEEE!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL CHINESE-FELLOW!

Is it coming to an end?

2011-01-25T10:30:00.002+08:00

Kind of tired now.

I don't feel we are the same as before anymore, I bet you feel it too.
我太笨，以为你还会像以前一样，在我们吵架的时候第一时间哄我。不管是你对还是错，你都会在我身边让我气你，讨厌你的心情都变成快乐。

时间过久了，感情淡了。你还会像以前一样，疼我，爱我，哄我开心吗？
我不想这样，但是我真的累了。我厌倦了每天见面我只会对你发脾气，而你就会用不耐烦地语气问我,“你又干什么？” 难道，快乐时光真的只有这么短的时间？以前在朋友眼中热恋的我们，此时此刻要结束了吗？

你告诉我，你是不是已经没像从前那么爱我了？

我们，的未来呢？

Am I really sick..?

2011-01-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

Bacon ain't behaving recently. Pee-ing everywhere, even on the sofa. -.-
He's just a angel with a devil heart. :X

Did not really cope very well recently. I seriously feel that I am suffering from mental problem like mild depression. My emotion gets affected very easily by surrounding happenings, even it's just a small issues. I feel that there's a knot in me, since secondary school till now, I couldn't let go.

I feel stressful, especially towards how friends treat me. I can't identify they are true or they are not anymore.
I feel everyone using different views to look at me, like I am some sort of monster invading their world.
I feel nobody likes me, be it secondary sch, sem1, sem2 friends.
I feel I am a irritating person to everyone.

I see how friends get into down mood, but people always there to encourage them.
But whenever its me, nobody seems to care. I just need a little concern, even its only words like "cheer up." Yes, I am attention seeker, I seeking for attentions from everyone, not just my family, boyfriend but everyone. But the sad thing is, ~~nobody would care~~.

Sometimes I even feel that the only attention I will received will be the time when I am leaving this world. Maybe not even that, perhaps nobody will even come to send me off. I don't know what I've done wrong, I don't know why I can't be the same as everyone. I really don't know..

Can someone tell me, am I really sick?

It's not that I'm not helping myself, but is the fact that I am giving up myself already.

2011-01-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

Cognitive Faci commented this for last problem, "I really hope you ask yourself what are the reason for you coming to school. If you fail to help yourself, not(no) one else can even assist you."

My reason is, I'm being force to. I hate school, I don't like to study but my parent, the reality, the school, the facilitators, my friends forced me to.

Nobody ever know how much I wish I wasn't born in this world. How much I can just skip my life and forget about the fact that "I'm lucky to have a school to study". I hate interacting with other people, I hate people entering my life and they were gone the next second, totally vanished. But without a certificate, where can I go?

From primary school till now, I've tried my best to get the best results I can all the times. But since when I did it? PSLE - 188, O-level - 24, Poly Sem 1 - GPA 1.4 .. It's not that I'm not helping myself, but is the fact that I am giving up myself already. The harder I try, the worst result came out.

I'm tired of being the last few among all friends. I tried, tired to at least beat them in some tests or what-so-ever, at least this boost a little of my confident. But whenever I feel I've done well, they are always above me. My confident was never boost, in fact, it was demoralised, over and over again.

Imagine I've been living in a world like this for 18years.

No matter how strong I am, there's always a day I will collapsed, and that's now. Over these years, no one had ever told me encouraging words, never once. All they said was only "This is how far you can go?" Yes, this is how far I can go. I have no motivation, no one ever lend me a helping hand. This is how lonely I am.

I don't have much friends.

Even my friends don't really like to be with me either. (Frankly, this is how I feel and I bet, it's a fact.) Without Don, I doubt I can survived till now. I guess I might have already cut off my wrist / jump off building / standing in the middle of the road or popping pills(i seriously thought of doing it) to end my tragic life. I feel abandon all the times.

Why I skipped school?

This is definitely one of the reasons, because I always feel I am alone in the school. I am so much unlike friends, I don't take the initiative.. or should say I don't know how to, to take to people first. I don't know how I can make classmates feel that I want to be with them. I don't know how to be with them. I don't know how I can open my mouth and talk with everyone, and every time when i failed to do it, I ended up being a loner and some kind what people say, "attitude". But I am not. I am just being introvert to new people, just being coward and afraid of everything.

I know comparing to other people at the other side of the world, I am consider fortunate. I've a home, a few good friends, a loving boyfriend.

But to me, I am just nothing to the world.

2011 .. :)

2011-01-06T11:03:00.000+08:00

10 had gone, 11.. please be nice to me.

Went to Monica's 21st birthday at Changi on 31st. The chalet was madness big, I swear and it's freaking scary in the night. Didn't stay over and home with Boyfriend, Jie and Cs. Did not managed to reach home before 12, so .. we countdown in the cab with the taxi driver. :)

Boyfriend stayover, was supposed to go Yvonne's house for post-2011 celebration, but I couldn't wake up. So gave it a missed. I spent my first day of the year rotting at home. :D

Hop over to Funan, Sim Lim Square and to town to do some shopping with boyfriend on 2jan. :)

3rd - 6th jan, SCHOOL. Ut on 4th. SCHOOL SIMPLY SUCKS.

Okay, done. bye.

Last 2 days of 2010..

2010-12-30T01:53:00.002+08:00

If you've been following me on twitter, you roughly know that I've start writting this entry like 6 days ago. Just in case, I am lazy to blog again the last few days. So I got myself prepared first.. HAHA!!

As mention in the previous post, "I guess I had a fruitful 2010, though it's not the best but it definitely marked many memories for me.."

Had my first full time job at Siemens and had chinese new year as an ending with the workers over there was great. Got myself to slack for a month before getting ready to Poly. I enjoyed my first semester in poly alot. Having the chance to meet lovely girls like Zann Eileen and Angela and meeting awesome guys like Carl Edwin Desmond Saiful Ahmad etc, had really make my life goes wild. I swear, they simply rock my life over the few months. Fun times which include spamming camwhore with my camera and having a thousands over photos in my laptop, laughters and jokes everyday. Seriously, all these had marked deeply inside me. I just love being around with you guys!

&of course, I met my boyfriend, Don Chua. Consider the longest relationship I ever had. Awesome boyfriend that already spent thousand dollars on me, as while as Bacon. I just the love the way we are. You show no selishness whenever it comes to buying foods/things for me. :) You're great!

I had my first chance to stand close with SHOW on may 20. My first outing with W15L too, I shake hand with Show, the best seconds in my entire life. And caught his concert on may22 at Indoor stadium. How great my life can be? Able to see my idol for 2 times over the entire week!!

Had my first air plane experiences and to my dream country during June Vacation! Okay dream country sound abit too serious, just a country that I've been wishing to go. TAWIWANNNNN! Managed to go quite a number of places and I was hoping to go a few more times. And it's also my first time leaving home for such a long time? 8days! and I'm very rush when I am back to Singapore. I head back home at night and took cab back to Downtown East to give Baby a surprised as it's his birthday that day when I landed back to SG. So in total, I didnt had a good sleep with my bedbed for 11days. Almost half a month! LOLLOL!!

November comes really fast..
Back to school. New Semester, New class, New classmates. Everything worked pretty well, but I wasn't happy at all. I still miss W15L alot, alot more than I expected. ):

But happy thing is that, Bacon join in! :D
My very first time mum approve to keep a pet. And she loving him alot more than I do. (Come again, Bacon sleep on my bed now.. while I am typing this)

And finally, December had arrived.
And it's the last 2 days of 2010. 2011 approaching soon, hope it's a better year.

Look forward, never turn back! :D

Here comes my New Year Resolution for 2011

Slim down like a skinny bitch! 48kg! (seriously gonna do it! Slim legs and arms!)
Be sensible, attend school and get a better GPA.
Love and cherish all my friends. :)
Save money pleaseeee.

So how was your 2010?

7th month of ♥.

2010-12-29T03:05:00.001+08:00

Time flies, we've been together for 7 months.
It's like only yesterday when I first start talking to you on msn. Or you start first? hahaa! I remember we chat the entire night and you still have to work the very next day. Redbull is all you have. :) We starting changing while others still remain the same. This is what Love called. ♥

Spent my Monday with boyfriend. We catch up with Gulliver's Travel at Grand Cathay. But before that we had our lunch at Cafe Indulge as Astons was packed with "sardines". Movie was great, more to comedy than to romance. After movie, went down to get Popcorns, again!(You'll never know how much I am in love with POPCORNS..) and walked over to Ion Orchard. Baby bought me Royce because he knows I love it and was somehow craving for it past few weeks. Walk around Ion and took train back home. Bacon mad cute! Shower Bacon again because he stinks after feeding him with human's food. :X

Aftermaths, ALL FORGOTTEN. :)

As for today, went for Haircut at Gekpoh with Xueping and okay, was kind of regret cause now very short. -.-"' I mean, not with their skills, (I've been patronizing them for years already. Their skills is almost equal to chapter2's) is that I made the wrong decision by asking to cut the wrong style. Hmm.. Oh.. supposedly I needa meet friends in the evening but it was last-min cancelled. :/ so.. basically I am rotting at home for the rest of the day with the.. new hair. -.-

I wondering..
when will my friends and I free again to hang out for some night supper. ):
I remember the last time was with Xinyi and Kenneth. Mac Breakfast. In the past used to meet up with Nevin, Kenneth and Cassandra. Now all busy with own things and we seldom contact anymore. Shag ~

So much of memories just flashed into my mind.
Used to ask Matthew, Cheehan, Khang Yeong, Kenneth out for some gambling at void deck with girlfriends. Used to go outings like Wild Wild Wet and such tgt. Now we don't. This is how life is when we move to a new stage of life.. ):

Oh, btw..
I didnt import my tagboard in. I guess it's okay for you guys to comment me on the bottom of my entries right? Remember the comment button! :)

Shall sleep soon, it gonna be a busy week for me.

Goodnight ~

52nd Week...

2010-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

In just a blink of an eye, we are finally at the last week of the year.
I guess I had a fruitful 2010, though it's not the best but it definitely marks many memories for me.

It's like ages since I last meet up with Ms Ng Siew Xian. Glad that we are able to somehow celebrate X'mas together with Xueping. :) Thanks for the presents ~~ Feel so great to have presents on Christmas! :D Anyway, we went Bugis > Bencoolen Street > Jp. Wednesday down. :D

Baby came over to slack again.
Help Bacon with bathing before we head down to Jp to meet up with Angelaaaa and Zannnn. A farewell meeting with Angela as she going overseas the very next day. Zannnn passed me the gifts she bought me in Japan. Cute max, it's pink panther cup and the.. "phone/laptop sticker" ! :D Evening head over to meet up with Cousins and Jie to marketing for Christmas celebrationnnn!! Night, Li gu drove us home! Thursday down! :D

Woke up really late, cause slept late the previous night. I am once again back to US timing. -.- Bacon, you failed. Got myself prepared and walk over to Yvonne's house with Jie and Bacon. Can't do anything cause Bacon keep whinning. :/ But Bacon is really cuteeee ~ :) Start our steamboat/grilling at 7pm. Full the max! Nothing best beats the times we eating with the love ones! 10pm plus we head over the carpark rooftop to play with snowspray. Crazy like max, everyone at the HDB all look at us through windows. We are freaking lucky not being screened by police cos we played till 11plus going 12. (Y) Bacon seriously damn cute, I unleash him and I ran all over the carpark, and he simply just run with me. UNLEASHING. damn cute and smart la! (L)(L)(L) Around 11.45pm, we went back to get ready for countdown! yaya, in all soapy body. :D Play and eat logcake! Fun like shitty! Home at around 1am. Chiong home to watch 200 pounds beauty + bathe ~ Friday downnnnn! :)

Baby came over during midnight to stay over.
And we play Gunbound till 4am plus, he went down to get Mac Breakfast. Like fat only.. -.- Sleep at 5am plus. Woke up in the noon and bathe Bacon (again). We head over to Jp for lunch cum dinner at Billy's. Than homed to rot. Christmas/ Saturday downnn! :D

I love all my gifts! Thanks Jojo, Xueping, SiewXian, Zann.. and Babyyyyyyy's! :D

I will blog again tml..
Byee ~

21st December 2010

2010-12-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

Last 10 days for 2010.

Happy 19th Birthday to Yvonneee! :D

Told myself to blog often, so.. I am trying to blog everyday.
I seriously will blog everyday in the past, but ever since Twitter hack jack my life, I totally forgot about my blog. Strangely, I will still hop over to check my shoutbox but never once reply till I updated a new entry. haha, that's me. :)

Anyway, I've been down for flu for like 4 days already.
Somehow it's getting better today as I don't need to rely on the box of tissues paper that I carried around (even to toilet). I feel I am so strong now, didn't take any medicine at all! All recovered by my own immune system! heh!

Tomorrow going out, and I only intend to spend $10 because I needa get somebody's present. That will be my goal. And.. the $10 is sponsor by boyfriend. See how poor I am now?

Alright, I done my job for today.
Bye blog!

Flu bug.

2010-12-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

Christmas coming! I am happy! :)

I am sorry I totally forgotten that I have a blog. The last update was on 8th December, and now already 20th. So Jialut la me.

Anyway, I am on holidays already. Finally it's here!!
Have been spending money on Bacon and didnt get to buy clothings for myself for quite some times!! ): I WANT GO SHOPPING...

I don't know what to blog cause I don't remember everything I have done over the weeks. Seriously, stay close to twitter, you will know what's happening. :)

Alright, goodbye!

2010-12-08T21:35:00.001+08:00

Don't like to go school now.

Though you smile together, though you guys laugh together.. but I know. I am just a classmate to you guys. To be serious, I can feel it. I am not an idiot.

Mentally exhausted. I doesn't want to blog about this all the time. It's annoying but if I look for someone to talk about it, all they will say is "cheerup". This is something I don't want to hear the most. Nobody understand how it feels. I know nobody willing to listen also, esp when they are now happily bonding with their own class.

Nobody can really understand it.
I feel like quitting school. I feel like giving up everything.

I hate myself for being so weak. It has been a long time since I became like this. Ever since sem 2 started, I start to behave like a coward bitch, hiding from everything. I dislike, i hate it. I always ask, why ain't I lucky as my friends were. Why can't I be the same. Why can they be so happy everyday.

If only there's someone that can truly understand how I feel.

I partial today, not only because I am lost in today's problem, but also.. I am really unhappy. And yet nobody cares. I almost cried out when Heng Yi ask me if I am okay. I hardly smile, hardly speak. What's with me today, I dont know. I only know I am tied up with countless of emotional stuffs.

I want to leave..

2010-12-02T09:54:00.000+08:00

Not going down to have break so I shall blog.

I don't like to be in the team when I totally can't communicate with them. I ain't doing anything la and I seriously getting used to it. That fuckup feeling. -.-

I am a failure. Last time when Xinyi told me about how her class somehow outcast her, I told her she just being paranoid. And as time goes by, things will changed and she will feel better. But now, it's my fucking turn. I feel the same as how she was. Everything was working fine for the past few days, but today.. everything just went back like how it was in the past. I am really tired of trying to get into the class. Feeling sucks to the max.

I starting to dislike this class.
I miss W15L so much. I miss how my classmates (even we aren't close) treat me, counting me as one of them. I miss how I can simply talk and laugh no matter which team I am in. Not like now. I dont want to try anymore. I feel like giving up.

Waiting in progress....

2010-11-26T12:35:00.001+08:00

Yes, I had a lovely chihuahua now. His name is Bacon and he's the one I have been tweeting about. He's cute and pathetic, timid and fearless. My family love him alot, including me. :)

I skipped 2 lessons this week.
Back to school for communication today, but faci wasn't here. Cover faci again. I don't know why, I not speaking today. Don't feel like either.. After so long, I finally meet up with Zann and Angela for breakfast. Somehow, I feel strange. I feel we are like strangers. I had nothing much to talk during the whole entire 30mins. Maybe we all are busy with our studies, we seldom get to contact each other every now and than including Carl and Eileen.. ):

I feel the changed, but I gonna look forward instead of holding back. There's nothing much I can do to it but to accept it. I still love everybody. :)

Another thing, money issue. I am really tight now.
Because of Bacon. All his expenses are Boyfriend and I paying it alone. We are in a really broke state now. How am I going to survive after that when December comes?

Countless of things to stress now.
Is it too reckless to have Bacon without having much preparation and consideration?! Hmm..

Flashing.

2010-11-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

There's always other meaning behind "I'm okay."

Yet to do a proper post.
I spent my Deepavail holiday with Zannnn and Baby at Universal Studio. It was supposed to be my single date with Zann that day, but yeah.. I see baby very poor thing so I bring him along. I really thanks Zann baobao, she brought me there because I didnt went to Resort World before and also to cheer me up as there's countless of unhappy stuffs happened the previous few days. It indeed helps, all your little actions and words really touches me and make me feel like I am a happy girl that have all the happiness in the world. :) Thanks baobao.

Than went back school and UTs and so on..
Though I am fine with my classmates, able to crack jokes and talk with them.. I still feel I don't belong there. The sense of belonging is so weak that I hardly feel I am part of the class. I used to be so noisy, talkative and always helping (okay, maybe not always, most of the time?) my group with PDT and PPT such in the W15L. I always hang around with them during breaks. Can always be my true self there. But now, everything seem so different. I am so afraid to talk. I am so afraid to volunteer to help. I am so afraid to open my mouth to join my class for breaks.

I still feel guilty about Monday, that I didnt help the group at all.
I wanted to ask them for some tasks, but it seems like I will be talking to myself. We had so little words to each other. I tried very hard, to start a conversation with every one, but the conversation wont last more than 4 sentences. I feel so useless. Now in class, everyone like bonded. Only me, seems more like loner. I'm only left with boyfriend to accompany me for lunch. Is this going to last forever? I hope it won't.

I only like DMA and Entrepreneurship, because it's the only time where familiar friends are with me. )':

I don't know is it the right thing to say this out.. I hope no one read my blog.

That day will never be the same.

2010-11-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

Absolutely agree..

Seasonal Affected Disorder

2010-11-11T09:45:00.000+08:00

The moment you feel like you're drowning in a pool of water, the sufforcating feeling that causing yourself to feel like your heartbeat gonna stop pumping anytime. The fear in you that telling yourself, you were afraid of death, you can't help but crying inside your heart.

I've no idea why do I have such feeling now.
Everything was perfectly fine till now. Nothing goes wrong, my emotion just swing so much within seconds. I've been feeling this way since yesterday night. I thought I would be okay after I woke up from my dreams, but it gotten worst instead. I feel tortured.

I always ask myself, is it because I am a cancer-ian (which have a characteristic that have the most terrible mood-swing you will ever thought of), that caused me to suffer from emotional torture. But come again, from the cancer-ians I know, not all behave in such way, maybe a few.

And this happened more and more often, is it due to stress?
I don't know.. but one thing I am sure of, I really dislike this feeling. I don't like to be unhappy. I don't like life being wasted on emotional stuffs like that. I don't like being controlled by emotional. I don't like every single things that are related to unhappy stuffs. I don't like...

I don't feel like continuing, if I do, I'm afraid I can't control my feelings.

#131

2010-11-07T22:54:00.001+08:00

I swear I'll blog often, AFTER MY UTs. I swear I swear I swear!!

Because it will be December by the time UTs end. It'll be a fun month unlike November!!

Meanwhile, I will only come to blog as and when I like. :)

Follow me on twitter, I will be much more active there.

Bye!

#130

2010-11-03T15:58:00.001+08:00

It's all about how life goes.

I actually wanted to spend some time blogging, but whenever I came this page, nothing came into my mind and the next thing I do was to click on the "x" at the top right hand corner. -.-

I wonder there's how many readers reading my blog, because.. I have no sense of guilt for not blogging as often as before. Now you only get to see one new post after one week or maybe even longer. hoho! Anyway, this helps bringing you more excitement in reading my next post isn't it? :P

From where I've stop (previous post), I indeed had a budget shopping with Xueping on Saturday. That actually mark our day. It's damn fun comparing all the prices and looking for the bloody cheap stuffs! Hoho!! We both are like behaving more and more like ... aunties. Gosh! Baby came to fetch me home that night. :)

Had another lesson on DMA on monday, should be quite okay. All I remember was laughing and crapping with You Xiang, Desiree and Diana. Baby partial with me, er no.. I didnt partial, my lesson end at 12pm. So it was him who partial only. Had our lunch at CWP mcdonald before we head back home. Stomach cramp start to kill me.

I gave school another missed on Tuesday because of the terrible stomach cramp I had. I almost finished up my medicine and its not taking any effect on stopping the cramp. This sucks max, I swear! :/ Baby came over after his lesson. Geez!

Ohlaaaa ~
Was msning with Zannn baobao the whole day. And we gossipping and talk about emo stuffs. (if you wonder how to talk about these two together, I dont know either.) Still feel great though, at least we doesn't have any border between us and we are able to scream our lungs out about our own feelings. Now I seldom talk about my personal stuffs to girlfriends already, except SNGXINYI la.. Hmmm..

Last thing,
I haven't been watching my diet for many days, and I feel the weight is coming back. -.- Am so lack of determination. Duh ~ Shall watch it, 48kg, I still feel you are far. humphs.

and and and..
Im gonna get a haircut real soon!! (i feel so regretted chopping off my long hair! Arg!)

Recaps - 25th to 29th

2010-10-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling cute.

I had a torture night yesterday. Thanks baobao for being there listening to me. And yes, I switched off my phone today. Just to avoid calls and messages.

I missed school on tuesday and today.
Monday's DMA was fun, basically crapping and playing with YouXiang all the way. Had my lunch with B before going home.

Wednesday's Enterpreneurship module was .. fine I guess? I went school quite early and had craps with YouXiang in the morning and we get to have our own business team. Vanessa, Vitrun and Hengyi came to join us as a team. 2nd meeting, we went over to empty class at E36Q and play plus abit of work. Fun! :) Aftermath, 2nd break help to complete ppt and partial with HengYi.. On the way to station, he keep laughed at me for having poor stamina. I was panting all the way like I've ran 48km. hahaha! Trained home alone after that. Evening went to Ichiban Sushi with Baby to celebrate our 5th month. :) Love him to the max.

Thursday's Communication Practice Module, get to group with HengYi again together with Yong Chang, Sharul and Derek. HengYi kept distrub me from morning till end of the day. We both didnt went down for any breaks because we rushing work and playing bejewelled. Like damn, I got so addicted till I say I wanna have a goal which is to break Zijian's record. Than they both laughed at me again!! T.T

Sharul keep call me bejewel after that and bully me. You know I kana bully till even Derek and Yong Chang also make fun of me!! Super ultra sad! (lol) Had fun at least, lesson end early and went over to W3 wait for baby. CWP for lunch together at pastamania, baby send me back to Pioneer before heading back to work again. <3

Tomorrow going out with Ms Su Xueping. Hope to have some shopping! :)
It's gonna be a fun day. :D

Bye.

10 dislikes!

2010-10-25T14:16:00.000+08:00

I eventually spent my 45mins thinking about these 10 points when on my way home from school. I can't help but keep on adding more and more. Singapore is the most shitty country as ever.

1) When you are alighting trains, esp during peak hours, these few fuckers will stand at the door outside BLOCKING your way out and squeezing theirs fats in as if it was the last train. This few fuckers are mainly the kaisu aunties, but I seen some youngster doing this too. Many were from government schools (nanyang girls, raffles girls, jc(s), etc).

2) Why are nowadays kids so bloody noisy? Why do they have to shout and scream and talk so loudly everywhere. (This is mad, i had an living example, I was taking trains home from jurong east to pioneer today, but I alighted at Chinese Garden to CHANGE trains because of those fuckers kids that keep shout and scream in the trains, I got really pissed off even my ipod was on to the maximum!!! I just feel like kicking and throwing them down from the trains. Serious! I dont mind being a murderer to help clear off these few fuckers.)

3) While walking on a pathway, a group of bloody kids or maybe a couples will tend to block your way, and you eventually have to follow their steps walking like some stupid snails if you dont "ERHEM" them.

4) Bicycles! They like to RING you on the pathway, when it supposed to be OUR ROAD, and not theirs!

5) This is for girls. The FEMALE PUBLIC TOILETS. I dont understand! Is it really soooooo fucking difficult to press the flash button? No, to be extact, now it's all sensor! You just have to hold your hand infront of the sensor and it automatically flashed! I dont understand why is it a tough job? And, there's always queuing in girls toilet, not the guys. There are like 10 over cubical, and why are we still waiting? Can any fuckers tell me what the hell are you guys doing in the toilet?! GOT GOLD MEH?

6) When you are to step out of escalator, the person infront of you suddenly slows down and YOU ALMOST TRIPPED OVER THEM. Okay, this is a serious matter. I need to say. You dont only injured yourself, but at the same times, all the people behind you. It's really dangerous to do so. I met across one fucking aunty that suddenly slow down, and I have to push her, she still diao me lor! Wtf, obviously i wont let her DIAO ME RIGHT, I WASN'T AT FAULT TOO. All I said was "Be considerate can, its damn dangerous that you suddenly slow down, you trying to kill yourselves or the people behind you?" Wtf, and she got nothing to say. =.="'

7) In bus, when you happened to take a bus that is really crowded, and you have to alight. Those fuckers will stand very near the alighting door, and when you say "excuse me", they pretend they can't hear and you just have to squeeze and bum them to aside.

8) When at food court, like dinner time, people are already eyeing your seats because you are finishing your food. But some people, just look at you (knowing your intention), and sat down there and CHAT! So they can have the seats for as long as they want!! Why can't you just go somewhere else and chat!? Selfish fucker!

9) Singaporean like to complain, including me. They always complain about how government is, how tough life is, complain this complain that. But turn around, they are still doing the same thing and not the one putting effort to play a role to make it better. And also, when government came to face in them, THEY CHANGED TO THE OPPOSITE. -.-""

(okay, this point not really under what I dislike. I just thought of it..)

10) Singapore was called a "Green city" because we are Clean and Green. People also said that Singaporeans are well-discipline, educated. I TELL YOU, ALL THESE ARE CRAPS. NONSENSE, RUBBISH. You see how fast I can think of these few points, you will know how "GOOD" Singaporeans are. And we are just a small bloody red dot, WHY DO WE NEED A FUCKING HIGH LIVING EXPENSES? I FEEL LIKE I CAN LIVE WAY OFF BETTER IN INDONESIA OR EVEN MALAYSIA. =.=

SINGAPORE = FCUK SHIT. GO AND DIE LA. =.=

Love, Rain-ie!

2010-10-22T05:05:00.000+08:00

I just came back from Rainie's concert. I feel kind of sad, because I dont know quite a number of songs. And.. my sitting areas.. the people are rather calm and .. relaxing. They dont get excited, shout or anything. Basically just sit there and watch like watching movies.

But concert over all was great. Even though as compared to Show, it's not up to VERY good. I mean, biased aside, that's the fact. There's nothing I will feel "WOW", and.. she's just a girl. What else she can do? What I mean is like, I can't say she have to do something over her limit to reach guy's standard right? haha. She's great, in conclusion. :)

After Show's concert, this time round I wont blog about how her concert is, and what she does and blah over the 2 hours because, you should get your ticket and watch it yourself. It will be unfair if you get all the information as what I have when you didnt pay a single shit cents and I do. I will only show a few videos about some songs that I really like alot..

Picture wise, I ddint take alot, because I want concentrate on the concert. I took some pictures of Rainie in different clothings. Just to tempt you go watch the next time she comes. :) She's cute in some parts of the concert anyway. She's nice and friendly to all her fans.

Anyway,
(okay, maybe I tell you what she sang.. So you can go on regret that you didnt go.)
All in order as the concert.

暧昧
任意门
狼来了
遇上爱
甜心咒
过敏
缺氧
冷战
只想爱你 (Video available）
新流感
太烦恼
调皮的爱神
认了吧 by 陈奕迅 (Video available)
旗子 (Video available)
我要快乐
想念你 specially for her best friend, 许伟伦
理想情人 (video available)
带我走 (video available)
匿名的好友 (video available)
青春斗
帽子戏法
我的爱点滴
你是坏人
庆祝
雨爱(Encore)

Photos are available in my facebook..

P.S// I tried to upload videos in facebook/youtube/blogger. but none success. Sorry!

Goodbye,

will blog again most probably tml or sunday.

Just Re-Cap.

2010-10-17T04:05:00.001+08:00

Hi guys,
I'm back on action! I know you miss me.
Anyway, if you have been following me on Twitter, you should roughly able know what the heck am I doing, and to be serious, Twitter is the most awesome application I ever used. I don't even need a blog right now (& the amazing part is I forgotten I do have a blog.)

Anyway, I am lucky that I have this habit of tweeting where I am going everyday. You see, I get to trackle down every single shit over the past few days using Twitter. Otherwise, you won't be able to see this blog entry at all. Heh !

Cut out the nonsenses, back to blogging.
hmmm. let me see...

Alright, I forgotten to mention on the last entry, that I met YeeSheng coincidentally at West Mall KFC on 5th Oct. He was actually sitting right beside me. RIGHT-BESIDE, get it? It was only until he called me. Ah, super paiseh! :X

6th Oct :
Went shopping with Xinyi. I think we had fun la. We managed to spend all our money on clothes and not food! Though we only get a few pathetic pieces, but I guess it can tahan for the time being. :) Home quite early because I thought Kaijie will come by early to pass me Xinyi's present. (ahhh, it's all surprise for Xinyi. I shall not mention much here.) Hmmmm. :/

7th Oct :
Marina Barrage with girlfriends! It's an awesome day!
Meet up with Xinyi first to Bugis to get her stuffs changed and we both went over to Marina Bay to meet up with Cassalyn, Peishi and Xueping. Took bus to barrage and we find a place to start our picnic. I very urgent to fly ahpui. Okay, Ah Pui is our kite. :) Managed to fly it up, but not for long. At least I did it!! Around evening to night time, we had some phototaking. Super many jumpshots! I am still waiting for Miss Su to upload it. Like ALREADY A WEEK OR SOOOOOO LA, MISS SU!! Somemore YOU ARE STILL ON HOLIDAY!!!! D: Went home at around 10pm plus.. I love hanging out with girlfriends! :D

8th Oct to 9th Oct :
basically rotting at home, if I am not wrong.

10th Oct :
DON CHUA SAY YEOW brought me to NTUC xtra. And he super mad like AUNTIE marketing. -.-
And, it's 10.10.10 ! :D

11th Oct :
I am rotting at home. Because school starting soon. I have this No-Mood-To-Do-Anything feeling again. Nuaaaa ~ Kaijie came to collect present from me. :)

12th Oct :
School reopen. And I am almost late. AH PISSED OFF!!
Went in class with Vitrun! :) New classmates, Shahih, ZiJian, Hakim and Shirinah! :) Sha and Zijian is awesome, because they both keep me entertained! Yeah, Shirinah and Hakim did too during 3rd meeting! After school meet up with CADDEZ and went cwp awhile before heading home. :D

13th Oct - 14 Oct :
Home, because am on MC. Eyes infection due to long hours of wearing contact lenses.. ):

15th Oct:
Back to school. Zijian start off my day because he make fun of me. :(
New groups mates. THEY ARE AWESOME TOO because we are rojak family. haha! We had a play that day instead of doing presentation, presentation and presentation (boring!) I AM MOTHER LA, cause my personality falls under a catergory which is motherly. -.- if that's accurate, than I think something wrong with me. Hadi as father (cuteness), Hannah, Bernard and HengYi (we call him M la..) as my children. And they have super weird characters I swear. If they are really my children, I think I will die. -.- Keep play all the way. As mention in my tweet, faci bully me. Home sweet home after that! Had dinner at 638 to celebrate Daddy's brithday! At night cut cake and sleep all the way.

I will carry on 16th October on new entry.
because it's mad long!!!

Goodbye!

All my photos are in facebook la. Go view yourselves, but warnings, my facebook photos albums are only open for my facebook friends!

2010-10-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

I am sorry I've neglected for quite some times. I will update very soon, in another few days times perhaps. Anyway, I ain't in the mood to blog too.

Sorry and be back soon! :')

As time goes by..

2010-10-06T03:54:00.005+08:00

Dear blog,

You know what? Baby bought a packet of diet tea for me, because I am really desperate for losing some weight than maintaining at the same "self-thought-overweight". And even I am exercising and burning fats everynight, I will still consistently munching McDonald yummy meals. At this rate, I wont go any further for my diet plan. So, I decided to cut everything off when school's reopen. Let's hope my plan works with the help of the diet tea too! :D

*****

I had supper with my lovely cousins on Friday Night. It's cool as usual. I get to try iPhone 4. It's nice though.. Chat ended at 3am and Wendy and Jojo came over to my house to stay over. We stay up till 5something and lights off while I still playing and watching my show.

*****

Went over to Chua Chu Kang on Saturday afternoon. We had a crab big feast!
Everything was awesome! A total of 11 people gathering around the table, playing and eating around. Except for my Dagu, the rest of us are all COUSINS! :) We proceed to Bernard's new house after that and we had fun playing in the empty room. We decided to occupy that room for ourselves since there's only 2 of them living in that house (him and his wife)! Home at 11something!

*****

Mummy and daddy brought me and baby to IMM on sunday. She got me an Iphone 4. Feel great though, and I love them now. Mum was really nice that day, she even took cab there when normally she will nag me when I voice to take cab to IMM but this time, she volunteer it herself. I am lucky because I actually enter the shop when there's no customers inside. Crowds just came in after I got to take a look at my new baby.

We went Gaint after that to get some ingredients for dinner as I suggested to have some grilling and steamboat. :) Cab home aftermath.

*****

Monday blues : Baby came over to my house to stay over. I miss the times he sleeping beside me till morning. But.. we had some hipcups the next morning.

*****

I had fun with my lovely ADEZ today (Tuesday).
After our first outing together, we finally get to arrange a second one! We had swensens at westmall during lunch and we went over to Zannnnn's house to complete some stuffs. Though I have nothing to do, but the girls never failed to entertain me too. Uno was the best part of the day, we took such a long time to complete 3 rounds, really longggggggggg time.

Walk over to WestMall KFC for some dinner, I know it's sinful especially when I am on diet, but I am trying my best to eat lesser. I hope this works all the time, when I am craving for fast food. 70% full. Trained back to Jurong east to meet up with Nooby Xinyi with Zannnn baobao, off to Jurong Point. Baobao join us for awhile and went off with her friends for movie while Nooby and me walk around aimlessly at jurong point and most of the shops are actually closing.

We grab a seats at somewhere and had another girls talk again. :)
We keep laughing over silly stuffs done by the guys. Now we know how torturing it is to be our boyfriends.

Waited for baby to come over to fetch us home.
It must be tiring for him. Shall go home myself the next time..

*****

Blog, I actually had much words to say, but I had no idea where to start from. Thus, I shall leave it until I have time to blog about it. Please ensure I do so or else I will explode! And results are coming, new semester are starting! I am getting moody-er and moody-er each day! ):

Your sincerely,
Your Owner, Xinyu.

Determination!

2010-09-30T06:06:00.003+08:00

I feel I'm happy.

I spent the beginning of the week with my lovely friends. They are really wonderful!
Initially, I don't intend to go Angela's birthday celebration on Monday due to some problems I had the day before, it turned my mood off and I doesn't want to affect others. Afterall, it's a birthday celebration. But Zann and Angela is really sweet enough! They came all the way to my house (yes, Don chua told them my address!) with the gigantic teddy that I want. It's really H-U-G-E i swear!

Since they are so sweet, I decided to just put everything down and head out with them. We took train to Doudby Ghout, and had our lunch at Zann's godfather restaurant. Edwin and Desmond came and join us after that. Had a surprise Swensens Ice-cream cake for Angela because she never had it before and she hoping to try it. So we granted her wish. :) Camwhore and off we go to Plaza Sing.

Raining outside, and it seriously suit my mood. Walk in the rain. :) Hop around Plaza before we went to take some neoprints while B went off to meet his friends. It's fun to be around with them. At least there is a few moments that I forgotten about the sadness I had and laughed my hearts out. :')

We went home rather early, around 5pm. I spent the rest of the day hiding in the room.

As our 4th month crash with Angela's birthday, thus, B and I decided to celebrate it the day after. We went to Suntec City to have Sizzler. Not too good, yet not to bad too. I got so excited when I see blood oozed out from B's Sirloin steak. I am so happy that we both had so much in common, etc MEDIUM COOKED STEAK.

Walked around and went to play in Carrefour. B bought me mushroom soup and dumbbell. :) So in return, I bought him some DOG's snacks. HAHA. Alright, just kidding, it's supposed to be given to his grandparent's husky, Hermes. We actually want to go over to Vivo, but I suddenly feel a very strong sense of .. tiredness! So, we went back home instead. I eventually slept the whole way till 12am. -.-

It's has been a long time since I last meet up with CASSALYN FOONG.
Yes, I am back to Plaza Sing. Get present for Xiubin and we went over to Marina Kbox with $2 double cheeseburger from McDonald. (random) We had fun singing most of the English songs but we didnt managed to kill our throat this time. FAILED. It's okay, there's always next time. :)

We sang all the way from 2.30pm to 7pm. And slack at the garden, had some snap snap before we went to Starbucks for some coffeeeee delights. Train home at around 9pm. I had a great chat with Cass today, and we had a great day too. :) It's nice to have some meet ups like this, so we can update each other about our doings. ^^

Anyway, I am desperate to slim my arms now. Like really DESPERATE!
I need to lose weight!!! LIKE DAMN SERIOUSLY NEED IT!

Heart's words.

2010-09-27T09:16:00.002+08:00

就因为“穷“字，我就只能羡慕别人。

我讨厌自己要用羡慕的眼光看别人!!!
我讨厌自己，我讨厌所有的事和物，我更讨厌这个世界!!!

上帝好不公平，为什么一定要有人受苦，为什么要让它所疼爱的小孩每天愁吃的，愁喝的？为什么要让它疼爱的小孩受尽贫苦，辛苦，和一些他们不该受的呢？上帝不是很爱我们的吗？为什么有些小孩可以活在富裕的家庭，而有些却得放弃自己的童年，活在痛苦中？

穷，并不丢脸，并不是什么可怜的事情。
虽然，我不算穷，我有个家挡风遮雨，每天三餐不愁吃不愁穿，但是，我从来都没有看不起“穷”字。我只是厌倦了自己要用羡慕的眼光看别人罢了。只是痛恨上帝，为何不能让所有的小孩一致同仁，能要什么有什么呢?

我讨厌能来到这世上。我讨厌自己有生存的机会。
我讨厌所有的一切！我好希望，在这一秒钟，我是死的。离开这烦乱的世界，到另一个快乐，自由，无忧无虑的国度生活。

A dozen of Sweetness.

2010-09-26T03:52:00.000+08:00

Ice-cream Man from Haiji Lane...

I missed Per.. I need FML season 2!

Having the feel to blog, but I actually dont know what's on my mind. It's blank!

Oh, I went back school for CS4 installation already. Quite fast though, and Xinyi so nice to bring me tour around school. I never once explore before the school la! We find Rp is more than a school. More like a stadium, shopping mall. hahha! We got so amazed by everything. Or to be extact, it's me got so amazed by everything.

We spent about an hour having snacks at Koufu and walking around before we settle down at W2 to wait for another hour. We keep laugh because even though we both are sitting right infront of each other, we still twittering. hahah!

Went back to library to collect my laptop. We went over to Causeway for lunch at PastaMania. :) Train back to BoonLay to look for B. Suddenly feel very tired, my eyes are like closing even I am talking, laughing and walking. So, after B had his lunch, we trained home. And obviously, I fell asleep after bathe.

And today, B bought me Popcorns and Shi Lin Chicken Chop! :D I am a happy girl! But, it's sinful. Even I have been exercising at night for the past few weeks, my weight like still not here nor there. I really need to drag myself for running everyday. ): 48kg, still very far away!

Am thinking to change phone tomorrow, waiting for Mama and Papa.
Shall see, since I not very urgent to change. Heh ~ :D

End here.
Bye ~

Hebe Tian Fu Zhen - Ji Mo Ji Mo Jiu Hao

2010-09-26T03:37:00.000+08:00

All you need is just a little of happiness...

2010-09-23T04:04:00.000+08:00

An exception for this week, I finally step out of my small little room.

Had a last minute plan on Sunday evening, as I was rotting in facebook.. Xinyi came to comment me and we decided to meet each other for some candles-fun since everyone celebrating Lantern Festival in advance. Head over to PM to look for candles and off to carpark. We were half dead when we managed to climb to the open area. We had some chats before Xueping came to join us. Went over to mcdonald to grab some snacks and also to carry on with our girls talk. Time passed rather fast, and we actually chatted for hours. Home at 1am.

Xueping was craving for tiong's food. So decided to accompany her since I am having plenty of rotting time(s). It's cheap and mad awesome delicious! Thumbs up for that! And I eventually had my bloated + fulled stomach for the rest of the day even though I had the meal at 12pm! We hopped around tiong and settle at Popular. Imgaine both of us are playing with the Learning Language book? She was rather into to the hokkein one. Laughs madly all the way.

We went over to clementi because I am craving for Koi. We managed to find it but it wasn't open yet. ): Waited for B to come join us and went to Jurong Point while Xueping went home first. Just purely wondering around for couple of hours before heading back to my home.

I am upset that night over some issue. I am moody to the point that I couldn't hold to myself anymore and I burp everything out to B.. He's so sweet to be my listening ears.

Peishi asked me out the next day.
Meet up with Xinyi and Xueping at BoonLay, we went over to Bugis to look for Peishi. We had Ice-cream at Haji Lane. It's delicious, I dont mind recommanding people to go over and try it. It is cheap, and the shop is easy to find. :) We played some games that is available there, and Peishi went to buy a teens magazine from them.. But the magazine was meant to be a display for customers to read while enjoying their ice-creams and Peishi got it for freee!! How OMG she is! We laughed really loud outside the shop. (laughs!)

Shopped around Bugis Village, bought nothing because I am saving money. Went over to Iluma because I want to find the "coin dozer" And they are sweet enough to bring me there. End up we played numbers of arcade games instead. It's the first time 4 of us playing arcade together, I mean normally I will only stared at them playing and this time I am the one who voiced out to play all the games. :X We spent about $5 each, but I guess it worth it right? Afterall, we got many laughters in exchange. :D

Bought our dinner at 651 and we head over to Xueping's house to eat. Watched tv for awhile and head to a nearby carpark to play with candles again! :) Back home at around 11pm.

Woke up at 10am today to get school's program installed. It was the remote support that help me install la, I find them cute and funny even though it was like MSN conversation. Overall, spent about 2 hours doing, but still FAILED. So I am going back to school tomorrow to get it done. (troublesome to the max!)

Went back to bed at 12pm. Only managed to woke up at 5pm when B came with my Korea snacks and Koi! :) I didnt had any dinner, because I am really full. I had alot of fun with B today. I laughed at everything he did. He's mad cute!!! :D

It's gonna be a fun week, so let me enjoy!
Next week will be my gym-ing week with B if there isn't any outings. Oh! And B promised me if I managed to slim down to 48kg, he gonna get me Olympus! This is mad la! Because my original weight (before now) is like only 50kg, how am I going to slim all the way to 48? hahaaa! Mission Impossible!

Alright.
Gonna end here..

Be right back sooon!

田馥甄《TO HEBE》06 - 我想我不會愛你 (CD Version)

2010-09-18T18:05:00.000+08:00

你的呼吸還有你的聲音

你的呼吸穿過身體我來不及反應
你的聲音躲在耳裡讓我生病
謝謝你給的讓我沉迷讓我丟掉了姓名
在好奇的時候拉不住眼睛

我想我不會愛你這樣下去渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會愛你只是也許

你的嘆息散落一地讓我歇斯底里
靠得太近一不小心弄傷自己
謝謝你給的讓我沉迷讓我困住了自己
在迷路的時候捨不得離去

我想我不會愛你這樣下去渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會恨你傷的痕跡住在我心底變成了秘密

我想我不會愛你害怕失去所以逞強的遠遠看著你
我想我不會恨你只是也許

我想我不會愛你這樣下去渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會恨你傷的痕跡住在我心底變成了秘密

我想我不會愛你害怕失去所以逞強的遠遠看著你
我想我不會恨你只是也許

A thoughts and sudden inspiration!

2010-09-18T06:10:00.000+08:00

"I smile when I see your smile. :)"

I did it on purpose to make the picture BIG. hahaa!! I am actually feel kind of upset before I came blogging. My mood only gotten better after I saw this picture and decided to use it. Anyway, I hope when you are in a bad mood, looking at this will make you feel better. :)

Oh, I went out with Liling last Saturday. Hoping around town area to get some stuffs. It's great to hang around with people. I am serious about this!

Supposingly, I should have gone to Malaysia on Sunday, but I overslept because I only light off at 5 in the morning. B came over to find me that afternoon. Tried to study for mathematics.

Monday back to school for last UT.
After UT, B went off with his parents to settle his NS stuffs. Angela wasnt here because she was feeling unwell. So, Zann, Eileen and I took cab to Causeway. We initially wanted to meet Desmond and Edwin at Causeway to have lunch together. But.. Eileen went off too, which only left me and Zann. So we thinking to go somewhere else. We went Jp, thinking to have budget lunch and we ended up eating Swensens for like $50, and.. WE'RE EATING THE 1 FOR 1 PROMOTIONS. Imgaine we aint going for the promotions, total bill will be like $100 lo! :X

B came back to Jurong to look for us. He helped me to collect my Rainie Yang's concert ticket. (so sweet eh? Because I force him to. :P) We went over to Tamah Jurong Superbowl for bowling. :) I had a great fall during the first throw. I hate their old lousy pok shoe. =.="' Back home after that.

I have been staying at home since Tuesday till now. I SWEAR. I am like a rotten girl now. I need some fresh air, so people... can-any-kind-soul-please-be-kind-to-bring-me-out? -For whatever, breakfast, lunch, dinner, rot, slack, kill people (er, no.. just kidding. *erhem*) or you simply need a companion, find me okay!

___________________________________________________________________________

There are times when people do hurt you in some ways. Lover, friends and even your family.. But as time goes, your wounds would start to heal. You will slowly forgotten the pain they brought to you. You will slowly forget what they gossip about you. You will slowly forget how you hate them after you found out everything. Eventually, you will also learn to accept the facts of it and learn to grow up on your own.

You will accept how your lover, friends and family from what they are, who they are. Even you know that they might hurt you again without giving you any sign of warnings. But.. because of the love you had towards them, you changed... to a person you never knew you would turned to. A forgiving person.

It's amazing how humans changed and works. Nobody is perfect, you can't seek for 100% perfection from a person. Even a perfectionist ain't perfect too. (they tend to be least popular because they are fussy, demanding and strict with whatever they are doing!!!) A true words, "Dont ever think of changing a person to fit your requirement. By doing so, it will only make you and him/her suffer even more."

Furthermore, why would you want to change them? Especially lovers, isn't it a truth that you fallen in love with your partners with who they are in the first place? Be it because of their good or bad points? If you can change them, than would they still be the one whom you actually love in the first place? I doubt so..

Therefore, since you can't change the fact, change the person original personality, why not you change your own perspectives and accept for who they are?

Stop thinking about it.
It's either you changed yourself, or accept it! :)

Disclaminer: Above issues are just purely my own thoughts, feelings and opinions. I'm sorry if any of the content is offensive to any one of you. Thank you.

Yours sincerely,
Xinyu.

S-mile

2010-09-16T03:07:00.000+08:00

"A smile cures everything! :)"

A smile pill a day, keep emotional away! :)

I'm feeling great today, because I am hardworking enough to do mask. :)
I'm happy today because I get to have a big McDonald feast just now. :D
I'm happy because my boyfriend love me a lot. =D

but.. I am not happy becuase.. I didnt lose any weight at all. ):

Try harder, Xinyu. ;)

So...

did you smile today?

2010-09-14T03:34:00.000+08:00

Things changed as time goes by.

I've changed, too. Be it for friendship, relationship. I've changed.

I forgotten how I should smile naturally. I forget how I should stay positive at all times. I forget how it should be felt like to be loved by friends. I've all forgotten, because I've been forgotten. There's nothing I can do, because I have my own limit, and it's only a minor strength that will not caused any different.

I am always putting on a fake smile, struggling to maintain it so it wont get worst. But I always failed to do so. I was told to let go.. What's extactly wrong? I have no idea. Why are we of the same boat, but you are always the center attraction of everyone..? Why can't we be the same?

I really envy, people who had their life with many wonderful friends. Though I know having too much friends wont be good to myself. But, it's really torturing. To sometimes even see how others take their friends for granted. Sometimes, I feel like telling them, "You should be grateful. To have them in your life. Because I, dont even have it. "

Tell me now, when can I stop feeling like this?
Tell me now, when can I have the chance to be people like those?
Tell me now, when will I be free from friendships problems?
Please tell me, because I have no motivation, no idea, no nothing to carry on struggling anymore. My energy are vanishing very soon, my hands are losing their grip to friendship bond. I letting go very soon. I am giving up in no time..

Time.

2010-09-12T01:55:00.000+08:00

"Yes, time heals everything. But, I don't have much time with me.."

I not yet study for my mathematics because I am not interested and lazy to do so.

&..

I'm going Malaysia tomorrow...

... So, good luck to my mathematics, because I already have the intention to go into class for UT with empty knowledge about this module.

111th post.

2010-09-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

It's the 111th entry, can I make a extra wish today?

I'm sorry that I disappered for almost entire week since the last update. I've been trying to mug hard for UT3 over this two weeks. 4 modules down, and I only left with Mathematics on Monday and I will be free from all these nonsenses test.

Anyway, as mention from the last post, I had a short celebration with B on last thursday. He bought me roses and brought me to Billy's for fondue. Cheese fondue never fail to capture my attention, I swear! Okay, very sinful.. :X

Alright, if you are a student, you should roughly know how life would be when exams are coming. I basically stayed at home for the entire week after that. Except for Saturday, meet up with Xinyi to get her presents and meet up with Xueping too. ;) Py and gg drove us(together with my sis) to IMM to have dinner and I spent my entire saturday without having any worried about my UTs. HAHA!

Monday - Thursday, back to school for respectives modules papers. I swear, I HATE PROGRAMMING TO THE CORE OF THE CORE. =.="'

Duh ~ by the way, I'm having boring life currently. No cash, No life, No nothing. Somebody just ask me out can? I mean after monday.

Okay, stop here.
Loss at words already.

See you soon!

Tasted.

2010-09-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

"The thought of it, make me feel so contented.."

I've been good recently, spending most of my time studying.
I got to admit, there are times that I completely forgotten I have a blog. Trying very hard to complete 4 modules by this week, but I guess it's impossible already.

B keep distract me. He damn god bad, he kept watch tv, and playing games. I eventually got carried away and join him for the fun. I spent 3 days to study 4 problems for programming! I ain't making any progress!! ): Am damn sad now. I hate Don Chua.

Anyway, went back to BoonLaySec on Tuesday. I'm so happy to see the familiar environment. Afterall, I spent my 4 years there. I went back rather early, meet up with Xinyi before we head to school to meet up with Yong Xiang. We toured around the school like some kind of tourist. So happy that our former teachers very welcome us back. haha! Crack some jokes with them.

Peishi, Gigi and Xueping join in us after that. We had our lunch in school canteen. Food as great as usual. We held back for Teacher's day celebration, overall not bad. Quite entertaining. After that, we head over to Gigi's house to get prepare for night's bbq.

Though not much people came, but we still enjoyed ourselves I guess? I am damn tired that night, because i only managed to sleep for 2 hours the day before. Kind of sian, cause I AM DESPERATE FOR A BED. Leon came to join us after that. We played in the pool and camwhore. Home after we had the cakes cut.

Happy belated Birthday, Xueping! :)

I spent my Wednesday and Thursday at home, just to study.

Am going out tomorrow with my baby to sort of celebrate our 100th day. :) But it's gonna be short, because I really lack of time to complete all the revision for the modules. Damn it.

Alright, stop here.
Goodbye.

A belated wish

2010-08-29T05:59:00.000+08:00

Though B have watch this before..

but still.. HAPPY BELATED 3RD MONTH WITH YOU. :D (27/08/2010)

"I love you"

Trying.

2010-08-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

I took this 2 years back when I just had Minnie.
I find myself really cute. :X

Run out of quotes already, shall have no quotes for today's entry..

I've been trying very hard to blog as often as possible already, best is blog everyday but it's really very stress when nothing comes to my mind. Very annoyed when you wanted to blog so much, yet you doesn't know what to type. I always (ALWAYS) enter blogger, type one short paragraph and ended up deleting very away after I am stuck at words. Duh ~

Anyway, I actually dont really like to blog about stuffs I had done on the day itself, sometimes I find it rather boring, isn't it? Hmmm..

Oh! By the way.. I finally, officially, start on revision la. Cognitive Module is like almost clear, okay, some may say it's a waste of time studying Cognitve.. but actually it is still important. After reading all those 6Ps, I realised we just have to think through using one way, and we can get the answer we want la. Not mainly just based on own logic. So.. let's hope my effort pays off after UT3.

I went Starbucks with Zann on Wednesday just to start on my studies. Feel great studying with her, because we dont just study only. We will take a break and crack some jokes in between before going back to those boring 6Ps. haha! So fun to have her with me! :)

Was hoping to grab some clothings when doing shopping with Xinyi on Thursday. But I failed again. I find myself having a big problem now. I have been going shopping with Adez, girlfriends lately, but they are the one who actually shops, and I always end up buying NOTHING leh! First time! What's wrong with me man! D:

Anyway, both of us really went a lot places that day. Our legs got soooo sour that I give up and wait for B to come Suntec to find us. He treat us Fish & Co, big expenses for him la. It ain't cheap having dine at Fish & Co, moreover, 3 people bill. Anyway, After that, B drove Xinyi home and yup back to my home. :) On the way home, I trying to figure out how GPS works, afterall it's my first time seeing that machine man. It is damn god cool. I shall get one too when I got my license! :D

B was craving for Ikea Meatballs few days back, so we went to Ikea today(27/8). Sort of celebrate our 3rd month too. We merely order 3 plates of food, and it cost a freaking $21. It is really expensive to survive in SINGAPORE. Now I know, why Xinyi complains about money.. Food alone, already took a lot money! ):

Am happy whenever I go Ikea, I can play with all sort of stuffs over there! We both having fun shopping at Level 1. How nuts of us. :D Found my frames and went off to make payment. Went to get hot dog buns! Shopped awhile at Ikea supermart, and we bought the meatballs gravy. :X haha! We can have it anytime now! :)

Zoom back home.
B came awhile and head back to meet his family. Jie went off to Macau today.. (yes, again. 2nd time for this year and I believe there will 3rd time at year end.)

Hmm.. I gonna carry on studying for Cognitive and Enterprise tomorrow. Aftermath, I can totally concentrate on Programming and Mathematics, oh ya! and even Science. And I find myself so amazing! I actually did better in Science than in Mathematics. Mr J.Tan and Mrs P.Tan, HEAR THAT? SEE THAT? If I can successfully obtain a C or even a B, MY SCIENCE MODULE WILL BE CONFIRM A PASS FOR SEM1......!

明知我爱你 MV - 龚芝怡 Serene Koong

2010-08-26T01:52:00.000+08:00

I seriously in love with this song now.

Choices.

2010-08-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

"The key of Success is to fail!"

Make a choice,
girlfriend or lovelys? -I want both.
girlfriend or boyfriend? -I want both.
lovelys or boyfriend? -I want both.
boyfriend or family? -I want both. (obviously)
boyfriend or Mousy(my fav bear)? - *pause for a second* I want .. Mousy. :P

Okay, very nonsense. I know..
I've alot of new photos now! :D Anyway, a short recap for last week okay? Hmm, went over to meet Zann at lakeside in the afternoon and we both train to jurong east to meet Angela. Eileen was late, so we head over to DG first. She was fast anyway, we went to fetch her at DG station after we shop at PS. Went to Cathay to have our lunch at Indulge. :D

Aftermath, we went to shop around Cathay. Angela had to go off first because she's leaving to malaysia. ): So we had a quick camwhore and bid goodbye. Left the 3 of us, and we had no idea what to do. So we just walk all the way to lucky plaza (we had lots of fun there!) to Far East Plaza to Orchard Central to Ion Orchard. Damn long distance! haha.. But guess we had fun having girls talk while walking. :D Trained home at around 9pm.

Sunday, I woke up at 930 just to catch Doremon and I woke up automatically!! I had a great sleep because I slept at 10pm something the night before. Rotted the whole day. Mama told me and dad about her pregency times. I laughed all the way. My mama seriously is a strong woman! I swear! She told me, on 1st July 1993, she felt a little pain in her stomach in the morning and she knew she giving birth already. Yet she still bring my jiejie to wait for school bus. Still can bathe first somemore before heading to hospital! hahaha.. I don't know I am suay or what la. That day, the hospital pregency room was like fulled? (i wonder how come so many babies arrive at 1st July la!!!) So mama had to like bear the pain till the room is available for her. Damn funny!! When mama lied down on the bed, I am already out of her ass. It's like.. without doctor lo! hahaha.. I can't wait to come la. -.- but anyway, according to Mama, I should be out of her ass during late june.. I came out late to be extact!!!!! So yeah, that's explained why I hate to be born in this world. Imgaine, 17years ago, I already dont like this world. hahahaha!!

Okay, back to here.
As said, rotted the whole day and I regretted for not starting on my revision for UT3. ):

Monday, rotted again.
But with the accompany of B. haha! Sleep whole day!!

Tuesday, today.
B accompany me again and off to Jp to meet Liling at 7plus. I drag my legs out because I am ultra lazy. But it has been a very long time since she asked me out. So yeah, just rush out! :D

That's all!
Here's 55 photos for you to view. Happy looking! :D

Time heal..

2010-08-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

"Never tell the truth to people who are not worthy of it."

What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset. Life is full of hard choices, all you can do is choose a path and never look back. Live your life to the fullest like you going to die today, and dream like you can live forever. Life is not just all about achieving and getting things that you want,it is all about how much that you can give to the others with your heart. (:

I've been staying at home this few days. I am having relapse now, thinking about very possible negative points about life. Duh ~ Just ignore me.

Update again...

Ridiculous Nightmare.

2010-08-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

I just had a terrible and so omfg nightmare. It's soooo ridiculous till I can't wait to blog and share with everyone!!

From my memory la..
I dreamt of me going out with B and Xinyi. (Okay, sound so normal here but...) B and I actually broke off already, and he brought along his new girlfriend. And guess what? SHE'S ACTUALLY A BITCH WHOM I HATE ALOT IN MY SECONDARY SCHOOL. Like seriously, the bitch!! We went supermarket first to get some drinks, and I don't know why I stand beside my "ex" when paying money. The Bitch just scold B and ask him pay money but she bought damn lot stuffs, till it is too expensive for B to afford, than she still being so unreasonable scold B for spending his money away. (sound more like I am the bitch. ha!) Duh, like damn irritating!!

I initially want return the $20 (B gave to me for shopping, in reality!) to him, so he can pay for the stuffs but he keep reject me. We walk over to library, and I am walking behind together with Xinyi. Very sudden, I burst out into cry and told Xinyi I miss B very much and I wanted to go for a patch. Xinyi damn nachos! She just say "aiya, this kind of useless guy, want for what? Love him so much also no use, somemore he date with a bitch.. duh~ i hate this the most. Stop crying and let's go!" hahaha! Than I like really okay liao. They suggested to take the stairs cause the bitch friends is studying at the staircase area, we went in and I like woo! How come so many people studying here. =.="' Than me and xinyi quickly climb up and compete see which who wins! ( me and xinyi VS b and bitch) Than my phone rang, and I am awake..

I jumped up la!
I seriously. After I laughed like dont know what. I told Xinyi about it, and she also laughed. Somemore, my dreams alot weird points.

Firstly, my dream no head no tail. How I break up with B one sia? I still sort of "forget" i broke up with him in my dreams. =.=

Secondly, HOW THE HELL B KNOW THIS BITCH FROM MY SECONDARY SCHOOL WHEN I DIDNT EVEN TOLD HIM ANYTHING ABOUT HER BEFORE. Worst! They even got together and date? (& omg, she just can't get off from me. My ex(s) date with her before and now even my current bf she also one. hahahaha! .____.)

Thirdly, knowing she's a bitch and I hate alot.. than HOW THE HELL WILL I AGREE TO GO OUT WITH HER? SOMEMORE WITH MY "EX" LEH?

Lastly, WHY WILL I HAVE SUCH A DREAM.

I feel god damn weird, because it has been a very long time since I had dreams. And I had a good sleep last night, I slept at 10pm and woke up at 9.30am today. Why do I have dreams somemore?

Duh ~

Anyway, those who want to know who is the bitch.. Message/MSN/Twitter/Facebook me. hahaha! You will laughed like shit too! :X

Insert yourself.

2010-08-21T05:55:00.000+08:00

I HATE PEOPLE PUTTING AREOPLANE ON ME! :@

It's 5.35am now!
I thought of going to be bed just now, but my mind was full of "You're Beautiful".. Fyi, i haven't watched finished la. I am busy this few days.

Hmm, yesterday (19th), B came over to meet me first. Had a little nap with him before preparing. Meet Zann baobao at bukit batok and we head over to Yew Tee together. Bought some food for lunch even though I already cooked porridge for them. Angela lead us to her house. :D

We supposed to be studying la, but end up all playing own stuffs. I mean, with so many laptops in front of you, you can't really concentrate and study. Moreover, those noisy friends are with you, we can't stop playing, you see. And I confirm one thing, I really have to study alone at home. A L O N E, I said! Anyway, it's fun to hang out with them! :D If Eileen baby were here, too, I think will have even more fun eh? D: Went to Hong Kong cafe for early dinner. But I didnt had much because I am not very hungry. Zann baobao went off first. Went to shop around at Yew Tee point before Angela number one send us to MRT station. :) Head home with B.

I asked B to come earlier than 1pm (he set one) today and he agree but he came only at 1.55pm! Which is like going 2pm la. Duh ~ I seriously very tired and it has been a very long time since I last slept at 2am something. B keep pester me to wake up so I could accompany him to JP for late lunch. Damn annoying! haha. So get up and start preparing and we head to Jp, Ajisen for lunch. :) Ok, slightly pricy for 2 people, but whatever. :P Finally went to check the price of Lyo and Merly, it cost $39.90 per piece. (super big size la.) but only left with Lyo. B initially wanted to buy me Lyo first, but I dont want. Cause I want both, at the same time. ):

Dump back and we head to popular to get some materials.
Realized I forgot to bring my singpost thingy out. So after popular, went home to take thing rubbish and thumbdrive. Rush back to Jp done everything and head back home. B accompany me till 8pm something and he set off to meet his family. B damn sweet! He gave me $20 to spend for tomorrow! Because I am broke after today's lunch.. He sooner or later gonna be my father already, give me pocket money. haha! But I love him la. First time, my boyfriend give me money to spend (though not alot, but thoughts count!) Love him a million now. :D

Jo and Wendy came to my house.
We played Taboo and I dont know what's that game but quite fun! Even better than taboo. Like siaooooos one. We like scream and shout in the middle of the night. Damn fun! Play until 4.30am something. All start to feel tired so head back room and take a rest. But.. you see what I am doing now. haha! Shall watch another ep of You're Beautiful. Otherwise, no time to watch le.

because... tomorrow going out to meet Zann baobao, Angela Number one and Eileen Baby! :D At night, Zann baobao and maybe Eileen baby coming to stayover. So you know... my laptop will be left aside. haha!

Alrighty.Very late already. I need to faster watch, faster sleep.
Goodnight or Goodmorning! :D

Stop being insane, I said.

2010-08-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

"To be or not to be, that's (seriously) a question.."

During school times, I often being asked, "What would you want to be when you grow up?" To be serious, I always have different answers. Teacher, Hairstylist, Interior Designer and now.. Millionaire! Alright, just kidding..

Weird enough to start on a topic like this but come again, over this two days staying at home rotted.. I've been thinking the same question over and over again. What my future will be like? What if I failed to graduate from poly? What if..? Yeah, again, so much of questions running in my mind. I always thought of having great job in the society but never once have the determination to go for it. My life is like .. walking one step, go one step. (走一步，是一步) Whether it's a success, or a failure, it is still not up to me to decide. We shall see..

Anyway, I finally start catching up with You're Beautiful and I swear, totally engross in it already. I feel so envy when the female lead always get to have so many secret admirers, and they always did something behind her back. So sweet! But yeah, Romantic can never be in me la! haha. I am boyish, I admit. & I find people trying to be romantic are silly retards. (own personal views, no offence.)

I not yet catch up with P.S Man, and I can't be bother to watch already. Dont find it interesting and not worth for me to spend my time chasing after it.

Got to go already.
Oh, by the way, I love B! He bought tibits to make me fat again.
&&& my dad just told me my face start to turn round already. T___T I already on diet, and seriously, I need a fast and healthy result now. D:

Goodbye!

740th Post.

2010-08-16T01:33:00.004+08:00

"The turth is yet to be discovered..."

I thought I would still have Monday Blues tomorrow because I thought there's school tomorrow. I thought I would be able to see my lovaly CADDEZ tomorrow. I thought I will be able to attend Mr Ong Hock Seng Science lesson tomorrow. I thought I would be meeting CADDEZ tomorrow in the morning before school. I thought we will be able to have lunch together. I thought we could take pictures again together. I thought we will be going home together. I thought.. So much of "I thought" in me now.. But when I turned around, it's all my imagination. All these ain't going to happened anymore. All of us won't be in the same class anymore.

Tears start rolling in my eyes when I thought of all these. My first semester in poly just ended in an blink. I doesn't want to make this entry a sad one. I know when my dearest poly mates read this, they might feel emotional so I gonna make this as lively as possible.

I hate school. Never once in my life I would think that school is awesome till I enter poly. I am lucky as compared to my other secondary school friends. I met this awesome great class, W15L. Though there's still one or two people that some of us dislike, including me, I still love this class alot.

My first time not wanting to have holidays, especially for end-of semester holidays, I seriously hate it alot now.
My first time having times that I doesn't want to miss school because of my lovaly(s) friends, CADDEZ.
My first time laughing everyday for the entire 15weeks of school days.
My first time that I want to be with my friends so much that if only I could stick with them for 24/7.
My first time having the feel of "I really love these people".
My first time I felt that friends are important in my life.
My first time not wanting to separate with the class.
My first time I wanted to cry because I have to accept the fact that W15L going to separate.

I never thought that it's friends who changed my life. Never once thought of that. I can't believe my 2 years secondary school friends ain't as important as my 4months poly mates anymore. Duh ~ I just feel so dishearted. If only Rp does not have such system that require us to change class. :X

Come again, I feel so amazed by how we bond together. I mean I actually dont remember how I get to know Carl, Angela, Zann and even Don, my B. All I remember is that on 07052010, an MSN conversation just poped up from my window when we are having lesson in class. They started to say about lalas and we are formed? Zann only joined us after lala got famous in the class. I really dont remember how I got close with Angela and Carl. We were really strangers back than.

We start to know each other when we attended Show Luo's hand shaking session. Zann get to see Show with me because I have two Show's concert tickets. I still remember clearly that we both tried to cut off our awkwardness in between us by crapping all types of nonsenses. We are like really out of words, and we just speak whatever nonsenses we have. Yes, it's nonsenses that brought us closer. Even until now. And that day, 01072010, my birthday. We got even closer like never before. From friends to dearest baobao. And now, loving each other like we are real sisters. I love the way we are.

I remember Eileen's too.
I remembered I was looking for W15L people in facebook, and she added me as her fb friends. She was the one who start talking to me on Fb. She was my first friend I made in poly. Didn't expect that she actually became one of my dearest lovaly now. It's so amazing that I bring up the courage to meet a friend that I never once seen before (and we only know each other exist like one day ago before school open). Really so amazing.

I wonder, will we still be as great as how I am with my secondary school friends? Will we still meet up soooo often like how I did with my girlfriends? Will we still love each other so much after 2nd Semester starts? Will we forget about each other when we go into new classes? Will we..?

So much of questions for me to think of. Why dont I feel this way when I got separated with 4E5? I thought that would be even worst than this? Because all of us went into different schools while W15L still will be able to meet during lunch or after school. Why!?

Ah ~
I just can't wait to see the girls everyday. Baby, BaoBao, Number One! I miss them alot alot alot. Like how I miss B. They are so much of my girlfriends now. Omg.

Alright.
I just got to wait till Saturday, because I am meeting them!! :D
So excited. I gonna hug them when I first see them!!! First move! :D

Gonna catch my show now.
It is really a very long since I watch my internet shows!

Byeeeeeee!!
- let me end my post with my brother, sisters and boyfriend! :D

With Baobao, Zann Chin Su Yin,

With Baby, Cheng Eileen,

With Number One, Angela Lim Shi Qian,

With dearest friend, Carl Tan Kai Er,

With my B, Don Chua Say Yeow,

With Everyone, CADDEZ..

-end-

White Roses

2010-08-13T01:45:00.004+08:00

"The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt."

One more day to end of semester.
I really love W15L. Can we don't change class?

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Brand New Day.. :)

2010-08-11T11:15:00.001+08:00

"There's always reason behind for every smile..."

I won't explain why I private my blog, so dont wait, dont ask.
Anyway, it's open now.

Basically having fun over the long weekends..
Sunday, slack whole day with B. Play play play! :D

Monday, SINGAPORE'S NATIONAL DAY!
Wait for B to come at 5pm. B bought me the Singapore Flag with Sweets. Damn funny! Watch NDP at home together, and we bascially having craps and all. We keep talk nonsense la! Laughs! :X B went home at 10sth.

Tuesday.
Head to school for Science. Last day already. D:
Had fun with my usual peeps! CADDEZ! They rocks! Serious!! :D Faci treat us Pizzaaaas so we saved our lunch money. (opps!) After school went to Bugis with my lovaly(s). B came along too. Bugis Street > iluma > Junction. They girls did their shopping and I accompany. Didnt buy anything, like for the first time. haha! Cause I wanna save money for my converse! :) We head to iluma for dinner, it was great but slightly over price. After that, we went back bugis street to buy some stuffs and head back to junction for Neoprints! :D Home sweet home after that. I eventually slept all the way after I bathe. Like seriously mad tired. Decided to skip doing RJ, and head back to my dreams.

Wednesday.
Last day for Cognitive. ):
Frankly, I dont really like this group. I am quiet once again. D: Anyway, half day gone. It's gonna be alright later. Anyway, after school meeting girlfriends. Another day to spend money. duh ~

Update again?
Goodbye!

Truthness.

2010-08-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

"W15L-oved"

“The truth is rarely pure and never simple.”

I hate the fact that we are really leaving each other. I really love this class alot and 15 weeks is just too short for us to be together.

It's like my first time having a class that only consist of 20 over people. I thought we wouldn't work up well at the beginning but it turned out that I was wrong. We did not have any conflicts with each other before (i find that amazing too), maybe because we are all grown up adults, we tend to be mature in some ways. We bond together like nobody else will. I swear, my friends dont bond so well with everyone in their class, only I do. Like with almost every single one of you. Though we dont hang out so much like before already, but I am glad that sometimes we will still go for our breaks together in a group, yes a very BIG group.

I don't remember when Lalas was formed. But according to Angela, it was formed on 7th May 2010. I didnt expect that we will carry on till now, about 3 months already. And now we adding more and more members in. (Anyway, lalas now have changed name to CADDEZ)

If we could stay as good as now in the future, we will be great friends eh?

If only we dont need to change class the next semester, everything will be great. I gonna miss W15L alot more than I expected after 5more days.

And I hope I dont cry on the very last day la. haha! :D

End here.
Goodbye.

Macbook pro.

2010-08-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

"Scatters pieces of pictures form the memories of you and me..."

I am trying to use macbook pro to update everything of mine. How cool was it? I update Facebook, twitter and now blog! :D hahaha!

Okay, let me reflect one what I did yesterday & today.
Firstly, had our last enterprise lesson for this semester. As usual, having lots of fun time with my lovely(s). I really love my Enterprise team mates man (B, Angela, Carl, Eileen, Zann!). We walked at the Flea market for like multiple times lah! Like siao one, Angela bought all of us a small hp chain. Really thanks to her, so in return, we bought a t-shirt for her. Which she likes alot la. :D

Eileen baby saw a Hello Kitty bear, very cute. But she tempted to buy yet she doesn't want to spend money. So we like so niceeeeeee, we bought for her as a Belated birthday present for her. Because last time, when her birthday, lala ain't formed yet and like none of us so close yet la. :) Anyway, she soooooo high when she saw the kitty bear. LOL!

B bought me a husky bear too. Like wooo, he always gave me surprises! :D I love him very much, and that husky bear now is mousy's pet. LOL!! I love the bell!!!

Hmm, after school chiong back home because rushing to do downtown east. Meet B at clementi, and we trained all the way to Pasir Ris. Meet jie and cs at Downtown and we walked to Costa sand Resort. I eventually slept all the way in the chalet, at night woke up and cut cake because it's Adam's 21st birthday. Daddy drove us (B, me, Jie and Cs) back. Drove B home first before we head to fetch Wendy and jojo for supper at 651. We actually chatted till 3am and left for home. Shag and I slept till 5.30pm. Didnt even know when B came in to my room want lo!

Went to Dian Xiao Er at jp alone to meet cousins and py + gg. Dinner-ed and now slacking at py's house looking at Caramel and playing her macbook. hahah! Sooooo fun! :)

Okay, I nothing to write already. Shall end here!

Goodbye!

I miss blogger. :)

2010-08-06T04:31:00.002+08:00

"It takes two hands to clap, and takes one hand to slap."

Okay, I miss blogger seriously.
I miss how I can play around with the templates and such. I decided not to move over, but to have two blogs instead. So I can update in both blogger and wordpress as and when I like. :) Anyway, I like wordpress too, especially when I want to private on a particular post. Easy and Simple but yet its sucks like livejournal. I can't get my own blogskin there, I can't place music playlist in, I can't change my blog font to something I like, I have to change the font size each time I blog. Madness!

Get it?
Omg. Anyway, it's 4.22am now. I dont know what the bloody hell am I doing here. I should be sleeping now because there's school later and it's gonna be a long friday with full packed datings. Damn. Later will be the last lesson for enterprise. I can't believe that 15 weeks just flew this fast. It's gone in an blink of an eye! I mean is like, it seem only yesterday when I first met Eileen in real and than we walked over to class stranger-ly. Like only yesterday, I meet everyone in class. Seriously like yesterday.

I have nothing to complain about this class and unexpectally, I really love this class. I dont know is it because it is only a small class that consist a pathetic of 20 over people, that's why we are able to agree on certain things much more easier than a class of 40. Everyone in class is nice. No hostile, no rudeness, no outcast, no racist. The class is like almost a perfect example of a good bonding class!! I am so lucky to be in here, I swear! (seriously from the bottom of my heart) ;D

Duh ~
I actually want to blog on this next week. Damn, Okay, pause here. I will have a proper post on this soon.
I gonna go bed nao!! :D

Goodnight!

I've moved. :D

2010-05-30T14:48:00.001+08:00

I think there's a need for me to move over to wordpress.

See you there! :D

MY WORDPRESS :D

Random thoughts.

2010-05-29T02:06:00.001+08:00

I bet baby is sleeping right now without off-ing his computer that's explain why his MSN is still on. haa!

I missed the last lesson, enterprise on thursday and head over to jurong east to meet up with Xueping. She also pon her lesson laaa~ We are of the same kind, right friend? hahaha! We eventually slack all the way till 6pm and went over to station to wait for Xinyi. They accompany me to Vivo to meet baby. So nice of them huh? yeah, first time. Maybe they only want to find excuse to see baby's look. hahaa!

Baby came and accompany him to have his dinner. Than we went to the don't-know-what garden to slack la.. Okay, mad slience initially, cause I really don't know what to say. Awkward to the max, but no choice, without crazy friends around me, I will turn back to become a quiet girl. I didnt want that too. Buzz! Slack till 12am, i think.. went to take bus to Boon Lay. Baby walk me home and I can see that he's really tired though he insisted that he's superman. (rubbish). hahaaaa. Baby cab home after that...

As for today, woke up late and I decided not to get the ingredients with Xueping and Xinyi. Meanwhile, sleep somemore and wait for them to come over my house. Make sandwiches, A-LOT SANDWICHES. Buzzzzzy ~ Took bus to GekPoh get kites and we fly off to City Hall to meet up with Gigi. :D Went to Marina Barrage. It's sucks, cause of the sunny weather. Damn it ~

We find a spot to sit and they went off to fly kites while I sit down to take care of belongings. The wind suddenly came and so strong that I almost fly!? So omg. Take pictures and we went down to the blah-blah-blah center. I dont know what is it either but I went there before. Thanks to blss. :D *miss the old days* Aftermath, we took bus back to Marina Bay and trained back to BoonLay. Dinner at burger king. Walk around and slack at Safra till 10plus? Train home. :)

And you, you, you, you. From sec sch till now, you forever hoping someone could give in to you and beg you to do something. Wtf? We are friends, not servants. Why should we beg? And your sacarstic remarks, bring them away with you. We don't need it. Damn! Because of you, I get so agitated over small issue. Arg, get lost man.

Ah! Gonna have spilt personality soon. I swear.

Anyway, baby coming over to stay tomorrow. Mad happy, though dad keep say it's not good to be alone with a guy. Hais, traditional mindset. -.-

&lastly, I JUST REALISED I AM FLYING IN ANOTHER 3 DAYS. SO OMFG.

byeee!

26052010

2010-05-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

I don't know what should I do now.
I starting to dislike myself, for being not like my ususal self.

I seem like I have changed, a lot a lot.
I no longer seem like the past me, because of you..

What should I do now?
- What can I do now?

Short and sweet.

2010-05-24T09:33:00.002+08:00

Was on MSN a few minutes ago...

I just update for fun. :D

Clayton is so sweet to say I am angel on msn just now. :D:D:D

Omg, maths!

Why people get emotional change so quickly..

I am tried out of a sudden, tried of smiling, tried of laughing, tried of responding, tried of everything. I feel like keeping myself away from the crowds, away from everyone. I wish to be alone for the time being, just me. But can I do it..?

If only..

I don't feel the pain.

I don't feel the saddness.

I don't feel regrets.

You ask me, I don't know either, about what's happening to me.

It all happened too sudden. I am lost now, really lost..

____________________________________________________

Don made a confession to me just now.. hahaa!

Okay, it's just purely jokes. Dont take it seriously. :D

2010-05-23T20:59:00.001+08:00

Yes, yes, yes!!
Went to Hubby's concert yesterday! It's mad awesome, and it's freaking high!!!

I didnt realised that my seats was actually very near to the stage! This means I get a really clear look at SHOW!! :D Zann and guys conference call to listen to live, but they hand up at encore part. Sad for them, perhaps, that's just specially for me. :D He almost cried when it coming the end, but I think he didnt, because he said he will be coming back VERY VERY VERY soon!! :D:D:D:D

Whole concert took about 2hours plus. It's awesome!! Huang Jing Lun was the guest for the day, he sang his song and it's very nice, but I dont know what's the title for it. 3D, 3D, 3D!! Yes, there's 3D!! Wont tell you guys the whole content, BECAUSE I PAID SD$180++ FOR IT. WHY SHOULD I SHARE WHEN YOU GUYS DIDNT PAID A SINGLE CENT! :P You want to know, watch it next time. :P

So me and Liling went to take bus at a wulu area, took to 313@somerset. Than we cab home from there. Liling lent me to wear her watch, and I am like "attached" to it. Though I always see her wore it, but it's like first time looking at it carefully. In love with it liao, gonna get myself a new watch. :D

I am packing my luggage for my tw trip, but I like nothing to bring, because jie bring everything. hahaa! It's still very empty now. Anyway, I flying on 1st June, 830am flight. Trying not to message me, unless you want to pay for extra charges. I will be bringing my itouch over, so i can use wifi over there at the hotel. Anything just message me at Facebook or Tag me in facebook!! I will check every alternate nights, perhaps! And I coming back on 8th June, 1315 flight. Dont so stupid tell me to get things on that day!!

Okays, that's all for today.
Byeeee!!

2010-05-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

Ignore that bloody fucker behind Eileen.

I had enterprise yesterday, and it sucks to the max. That's explain my previous post. Next week, enterprise last lesson with that faci and Im not attending. Cheers to me. :D

Went out with Eileen baby, Olivia, Zann, Carl, Don, Desmond, Edwin and Saiful to Farrer Park. Went City Square Mall to have our hand-shaking session with SHOW LUO. YES, YOU DIDNT SEE WRONGLY, IT'S SHOW LUO ZHI XIANG. MY HUBBY!! :D Imagine, I TOUCHED MY IDOL'S HAND. AND WAS LIKE ONLY A FEW CM AWAY FROM HIM. *OMG~ FAINT*

So after that, we keep snap photos of him. Though all quite far away, but yea .. still SHUAI!

Eileen baby, Olivia, Desmond, Edwin and Saiful went off first. So we continue to snap, like siao. hahaaa! I tell you, DON'S HAND IS FREAKING HELL LONG. That's what I've been saying when he helping me to snap. hahahaa!

After that, we see Show's go off and head home.

Carl went to eat with his cousin while Zann, Don and me went home. So we keep talking, all about Show. Damn siao. Don alighted at Clementi, Zann alighted at Jurong East. Fun day with them, they always make my day! :D

As for today, I just overslept and decided to skip today's lesson.

Went to meet Eileen baby, Zann, Angela, Edwin, Don, Desmond, Saiful after their lesson at woodlands. Had Swensens with them. :D Angela went off first because she have something else on. Chatted and off we go. The rest took marina bay train home and left me, Zann and Don again. In train we talk about bgr. Sad max. Got separated with Don when we reached Je, Zann follow me to meet Xueping but alighted at lakeside. And the two of us went to jp to makan dinner. Meet up with Xinyi and Peishi too, sat down and have a chat since I didnt meet them for a very long time. :D Home sweet home after that.

Anyway, some might have seen my FB, yes, I got pissed off by one of the fucker in my class. I eventually shoot him in fb directly and block him from my profile plus w15L album. Fcuk him to spoil my mood and bully my baby! He seriously sucks to the max.

Goesh, why am I wasting time to blog about this fucker!?

Byee!

2010-05-20T10:46:00.002+08:00

This is what I am doing during enterprise, the sucker module. :D

2010-05-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

I haven't been doing a proper post recently.

A brief one,

Attend school with Xinyi in the morning, and we have been cabbing to school. lazy max! :D
Obviously, spend my whole day with beloved class. haha! I really had alot fun with them. They just rocks max!

Monday, maths module. Change grouping, Desmond, Liran and Ahmad grouped with me! :D We had our breaks as usual, with everyone! :D Than presentation and blah. After school went to interchange with Eileen Baby. <3

Tuesday, programming, change group. LOVED TODAY'S GROUP TO MAX. Carl, Angela, Desmond and Yong Yee! Wooo. :D but Desmond didnt come for today! ): I bought a sweet that was intro by Carl last time, than we got addicted and we went to get a box of it! 3 of us eat dao siao, and I became mad hyper, keep laugh and laugh and laugh. UT after that.. Went cwp with Eileen baby, Don, Saiful, Ahmad and Liran. Don went to collect his Jay chou la, so called "his brother's album".. ahahha! Carl, Edwin, Desmond came over to look for us and we went home. HAHA! Dumb enough. Eileen baby and Liran went to take bus, Ahmad and Carl went to meet their friends and the remaining us take trains. I am the only girl man, and the only one take to jurong east. haha!

Wednesday, COGNITIVE. Change group!! Angela, Saiful, Ahmad and Liran in my group. Got suan by Faci early in the morning cause I shoot him. hahaha! Than we keep go facebook and comment on the photos. Took alot photos today, all in my fb w15L folders. Crapped alot with Faci also!! haha. So fun! After school, skip python workshop and went to interchange with Eileen baby, Desmond, Don and Edwin. :D As usual, eileen went to take bus, left the remaining us. Don drag me to take train with them, but I run off at admiralty. hahaha!

Tomorrow having Science UT, I havent read a single shit of it. hahaha!

Nice, now msning with lalas and Faci on msn. Dumb stupid our conversation!

Here are some nice photos! :D

First (from left to right), Me & Faci. Me & Desmond (having hard time, because des is really tall!!)
Second row, Me & Hariz!! (I love this, cause I look damn nice haha! & they all comment that we are standing very close in another photo.) Me & Carl (promoting POKKA drink! :D)

Thrid row, Eileen, Me, Zann, Liran, Angela! (Sweet) , Same but without Angela.

Last, OUR MINI CLASS PHOTO! :D

Are we close? I always take in this way with everyone!! .______.

Gooooodbye!

Complicated.

2010-05-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

I laughing very happily today in school, very happy.

But.. I'm feeling empty inside. I dont know why..

When..

2010-05-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

..you are happy, come w15L and share the joy with us.

..you are unhappy, come w15L. We will cheer you up.

..you are bored, come w15L, we will give you hell laughters.

I was feeling very bad in the morning, but thanks to my beloved class.

They really brighten my day. I love to go school now, because I can be with them. They really rocks.

This is the usual peeps that I always had my lunch with. They are really rockers! :D

Was webcaming with someone earlier on.. and suddenly ghost came to visit me....... O.O

hahas, IT'S CASSALYN FOONG. <3

That's all for today.

Byeee!

It just purely memories.

2010-05-16T19:54:00.000+08:00

When Im still ....

BLCB!!! I didnt take part in this, I think I already quit that time for this. hahaha! I am so proud to be in flute team!! :D 070707, BoonLay Sec 30th anni. :)

Chingay 2006.
I did take part in this!!! I remember the training was mad tideous!!! But it's fun!! :)
In the end, I still didnt attend the actual performances.. My first and last performance in BoonLay Concert Band. :(

Imgaine we spent 2-3months learning the same thing, 3 times per week. Goesh, mad!!
So in 2007, quit and hop on to Ten-Pin Bowling!! Woooooooo ~ Bowling rocks too!!

It really kill.

2010-05-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

Drank a bottle of yakult in the afternoon and I thought it was alright but now, I am coughing badly till fever came back. Just had my medication and I feel like sleeping already. God's sake.

Was planning to go City Square Mall on thursday with Eileen, Edwin and Zann because it's Show's autograph session I think. Everything was still under planning, we wanted to ask more peeps so we could have more fun. :D This is crazy, I swear. 2 days after that I will be at indoor stadium. ;P

I've never been feeling so comfortable with my friends before. Many said that secondary school friends work out better in the end, but I seriously think it's the other way round. I'm living great with my poly friends. They let me feel that I am important and the fact that I do exist at all times. Readers, you should be able to see it, from my blog.. I had never smile truely before whenever with friends, but they made it. They made my everyday's filled with enjoyment, laughters, happiness. They are just like my another.. family. For the first time, I wanted to tell them, I love to have them around. I dont wish to be alone anymore.

But that doesn't mean I will leave all my secondary school friends and girlfriends. Still, friends forever. Though sometimes I really can't feel my exist even I am with you guys. But yeah, afterall, it's you guys who have gone through ups and down with me. :D

Sucks, I writting so offensively.
Bad at words.

Byeee~

I'm gonna ...

2010-05-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

...say I REALLY LOVE MY POLY-LIFE NOW. :D

I've been enjoying my school life recently with lalassss.
Did meet up with Cassalyn for dinner on Monday's night. Just a simple dinner with her to sort of celebrate her brithday. Feel so guilty. :S Home after that. I eventually slept till next morning straight. And great, down with high fever for 2 days.

Went back to school on Thursday for Enterprise. Lost, seriously. Had fun with Eileen baby, Angela, Carl and Edwin during our breaks. Went home after I help out with the presentation. Sick to the max.

School today again, change group and very lucky to team with LiRan, Desmond and Don. (: So we had fun again, crap. Breaks with Eileen baby, Angela, Zann, Carl, Edwin, Don, Desmond, XingMing and Gavin. Okay, really big group. And Carl and I actually ran down by stairs to chase the others who took lift. Than we realised we very dumb and panting all the way. hahaha! Zann molest me when we are on the way back to class!! I called police, but police went to catch ang kong siao. Damn sadd la. (All comments from fb.) hahhaa!

After school had UT for cognitive and home sweet home after that.
I'm so gonna sleep now..

Byeeeee!

If love counts..

2010-05-13T17:36:00.001+08:00

..than what does truth do?

~~Irreplaceable.~~

For some facts behind it, I misunderstood. The only flaw in you, yet I hold on to it.
-I'm regretted on the decision I made 2 years ago.

If only I could open my heart once again, to accept all the lies and enjoy every second of blissful like how other couples did. I am sorry..

Regards,
Daphne l-xy.

Thursday "blues"

2010-05-13T08:57:00.000+08:00

I was typing down what faci show on projector but I run out of time and she just scroll up without any notice.. So i type this instead.....

Damn her, I hate thursday. I hate enterprise. I hate faci !!!!! ):

School..

2010-05-10T13:02:00.000+08:00

I thinking to post up my bloody plaster, but it's super gross. So, I better don't.

I am tired, feeling sleepy and I think I might fall asleep on my lappy anytime. Haa!
Mathematics module today, nice one, I totally have no idea what it is all about and I dont know how can I contribute to it. Buzz, super relax at my seat and that's make my sleepyhead appear. =.="'

Wondering if we're going to celebrate cassalyn's birthday today?

&fb, haaa~ can't bother to explain further liao.
Thanks for those who congratz me. :D

Ppt again, byee!

Alive kicking

2010-05-09T22:42:00.001+08:00

Woke up late today and rush off to ahma house by bus 185. I dont know if i am suay or what lo, i reached my stop and I MET BUS ACCIDENT! I already at my stop! Its like just a few steps away to the door and i will be safe from that accident!

Fuck that 157 bus who gave my bus a huge blow. He confirm speeding lor! Otherwise the impact wont be this big! I am lucky enough to sit quite infront rather than sitting at the end of the bus, if not i think i will be in the hospital now. I fall onto the ground because i happened to be standing up. And i think the people behind accidentally push me also la, so my knee got scratches and jie got hit by her head.

All of us quickly get down the bus, jie and I super kiasi, we walk damn far away from the busstop. Since both of us are okay without serious injuries, we decided to go back and help our bus driver and others la. Cause my bus driver was like concuss liao, also kana hitted on his head and he trying his best to stay awake and look at his passenger from his seat. Just then, my leg suddenly very cooling lo, so i take a look at it and lift my head again. " jie, my leg bleeding." thats what i said. So jie uturn and try to see how am I.. But i am seriously okay, and can see that my wound are very very small, but i dont know why it bleed PROFUSELY lor. Imagine whole white tissue became reddish one. So we rush off to ahma house and wash my leg, full of blood. Scare everyone. Hahaha! It dont feel hurts at all until sanyi help me put medicine, like siao! Super pain! And got swallon bruised. :(

Watch avatar, dinner and cut cake. Oh fyi, its ahma birthday cum Mother's day! :) went home at 8pm plus. Wash up and reapply medicine, i realised my cut super deep lo, erxin like siao! Than it goes bleeding again. :( no scar on leg please!

And hor, i was happened to be studying for science module topic on BLOOD when im in the bus. Sooo touchwood la! & for the past 17 years, this is my first time bleeding because i fall down leh! Siao one! Waste my blood. :( i took photo of my injuries, upload next time, let you see how disgusting it is. :P

&
THAT BUS DRIVER, you suck big lor! I curse you la! So irresponsible and reckless! You are driving a bus, full of passenger and you drove at this speed! Arent you feeling guilty to cause so many people injured and SBS TRANSIT have to cover your backside for you! Fuck you la! You are an big fucking idiot!

Arg! :@

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L-ife.

2010-05-08T20:50:00.001+08:00

I am almost recovering from my illness, I guess.

Back to school on friday for science module. Ahmad always my friday's entertainment. hahaa! Had lunch with Eileen baby, Angela, Yong Yee, Edwin, Carl and Gavin. Still as fun as before, rocks to the max, lala group yo ~ haaa! Back to class and prepare powerpoint. Sucks though.. Lesson end late and had UT trial straight after that. No face.. ):

After school went to meet up with Wanting and Shirley together with Xinyi. Cab to Jp since it's raining. Xinyi went off to meet Fancy and we remaining 3 of us went over to Long John for early dinner. PeiTing join us after that. (: Went back BoonLay Sec after dinner, they had their musuem night and I forgotten what's that all about, it was like almost 3 years ago matter for me. hahah! Had small chats with ex-former teachers, Mr Desmond Tan obviously one of them. hahaaa! Miss secondary schoo'sl times, A LOT A LOT than what you expected. D: Playing webcam with Xinyi, Xueping and Peishi in canteen after that. Than went over to hall to slack. =.= Pm for drinks and home sweet home.

Today, out with Xinyi. To Ion - Fareast - Paya Lebar - Jurong Point. Saw Olivia in train while on the way to jp. (: Xueping came to find us, went Sing Post to collect mail and to Medicure. yea, No More PINK, just a normal transparent white. Bought dinner and went to void deck slack. Peishi came to meet us. Talk, talk, talk, play, play, play. And than home sweet home.

I want to get this! :P

I am tired, shall end here ~
Byeeeeeeeeeee!

IF ONLY...

2010-05-06T16:10:00.001+08:00

- I didnt fall into you.
- I was brave enough.
- I am understanding enough.
- I could get over you earlier..

if only...
-time could rewind back....

I will tell you, let's just be friends.

Decision.

2010-05-05T11:56:00.001+08:00

Having a hard time deciding whether to go home now or stay for the entire lesson.

I can feel that my body is warning me to take a rest on my bed, but I don't know if it's good to leave my beloved grp members behind since Hariz is not here too. Presentation, it's not hard for to me work on it with latpop, but you know it's really tough to present it when suffering from a stupid sore throat.

Tell me now, should I go or stay..?

I just love to be around when it comes to cognitive module. What should I do now? Brainy, stop luring me to go home. ):

Bye.

edited:
I stay in the end. Team 1 rocks! :)

What a life..

2010-05-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

I'm down with Sore Throat, headache, cough. I doesn't want to talk at all.

I don't have the intention to on my laptop, but I need to do some personal stuffs so I took the chance to update my blog too. Otherwise, I will spent another 1000 years to update.

I'm very tired, I slept at 4.30pm to 7.30pm just now, but I still feel that my neck breaking because of the heavy head. =.=''' But whatever it is, I am still going school tomorrow. Very weird, because when I am really healthy, I can't wait to skip class, but when I fall sick, I dying to attend class. How contradicting a human can be? Or maybe, only me. haha!

Anyway, there's two important things I need to do now.
-Save money (for taiwan, liling's, my shopping)
*yes, i think I am going to get my clothes every week on blogshops, so I will just stop complaining about the lack of clothes. hahaha! Afterall, I am still a girl. :P
-Study hard for my UTs.

Do you think I will follow on what I've plan? I doubt so, but I gonna try it! :D

Goodnight, I got to sleep, am really tried.