Sunday, April 24, 2011

Twenty-three, April, 2011

I will never for this day till the last breathe of mine.

This is the saddest day in my life.
The day where I wanted a breakup so much,
The day where I see where I stand among all my "friends",
The day where I finally realised I am just nobody.
The day where I know nobody will actually cares you're dead or alive.
The day that I finally know, I am alone all along.

I cried so much over everything that I feel my body is dehydrating, so much that I feel that I've cried half of my life away. Not to say, that suicide thinking obviously came across my mind. There is this one second that I wanted to just grab the scissor beside me and slash it into my heart without any hesitation.

How much more do I need to go through, how much?
I am totally drained out, totally. Physically and mentally tired. I only feel I am a living corpse, walking around like a zombie without any soul at all. I really really really can't take it anymore.

I shall closed my heart, closed everything.

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