Goodbye Year 2.

When relationship brings nothing, but only kills.

How much more to go? I don't know.
How much more can I hold? I don't know.
Will it end...? Never..

I regretted starting off again 2 years back.
If I knew history would repeated, I would have hold myself and never let myself fall into it again. I will never forget how much tears I broke into 5 years ago. And 2 years later, you proved to me, relationship indeed brings nothing but hurts. I will never trust any of these anymore.


Without trust, nothing is possible. 

I will never, never, ever get into relationship anymore. NEVER.
Suffered once, suffered twice. It's enough.

Life is way better when I am single.
All I need now is just plenty of true friends.

Truefulness

You met various people in your everyday life. Some you might feel they are friends forever, some are just passerby. But when times passed, you started to see who is true and who is fake. You'll never expect the one you think are passerby ended up a someone special to you, and the one you think its friends forever? Nowhere to be seen.

Looking back at the flashbacks of my entire 19years of life, I can't deny I have really less true friends, probably zero. I am always envious and jealous about how my other friends get to have more people around them that makes their life interesting and me, was just a plain boring sheet of life.

Sometimes I tried, sometimes I cared, sometimes I ignored. But it all result in only one thing - it just totally bring my mood down to the extreme. 

As time goes by, I started to learn to hide my feelings away from everyone. Nobody can be trusted, be it your closest friends or even your family. Only you, and yourself. What's the point telling them too? Do they ever use their heart to sincerely care about what fuck situation you are in? 


Ask yourself, and look about at your life again.
Who is true, &who are the fake ones?